TOPIC: Being used by women

I met a girl in 2014 and from then till now it was a whole roller coaster ride. At first I tried to keep her a secret from my fianc'e but that didnt work out but she often told my fiancee of every sexual encounter we had. At first I was interested in her especially since she was Jamaican ( I\'m half Jamaican) she was everything my fiancee wasn\'t outgoing, fun, spoke her mind, my fiancee was sort of the opposite. I tried to ignore my feelings for her until I met her in person and she snuck into my room to make out. Too me she was fast nd I didnt think she was faithful but I still pursued her. I was infatuated with her until I fell in love with her, she was much younger then me nd I tried to hide my feelings for her while dating my fiancee but it often didnt go right. She would always tell my fiancee everything we did no matter how bad it was and yet my fiancee would always forgive me. I use to think she didn\'t want me till I finally started to believe that she loved me too but of course it was a lie. She was absolutely obsessed with sex and used me only for her pleasure and for a child. I was stupid and wrapped around her finger nd its sad I\'m just now realizing it. I did everything she wanted and almost left my fiancee of 6 years for her, someone I just met who only sexually nd physically attracted me.. I have a good and so I try my best not to react to things but she knew I have anger issues so she would try to provoke me by cutting up my clothes and threatining to destroy my ps3, Once she even cut me up with scissors and she almost stabbed me in my spine if I didn\'t fuck her...through all of that I still loved her and wanted her. She told me she had 6 miscarriages yet she never got pregnant till recently, even when I left she claimed she had another miscarriage but is pregnant with my child although I wasn\'t there. In the end my love for her overcame any arguments we had and any thing un reasonable she did. I fell for her trap and now stuck with her forever BC before I left I got her pregnant. This goes out to anyone who suffering with there relationship or who\'s in love with the wrong person.

She often got to me about my size. I never told her the true story about my size, she just know I was small but didnt know why, so one day she said I was so small and can\'t do nothing for nobody. Keep in mind I was madly in love with her and this girl was obsessed with sex and Dick size, she even had a penis size diagram on her phone. I lost it and got very depressed to the point where I tried to kill myself because of what she said. She often blew it off saying how I\'m small but ik how to please a woman but I never believed her and thought she only said that to make me feel better. In the end she told all of her friends that i was mega small and that I know how to fuck, she claimed that she was the only who could stop me from doing any p.e and that she likes me how I am which is bs she just wanted to embarrass me but thankfully I only told it was a procedure I can do to get bigger ,I never told her what\'s its called or who\'s the doctor.

I\'m sure its healthy to let all that shit out. But to be honest i doubt you know what love is. You have to love yourself before you love others, and if you loved yourself you would let someone treat you like that.

That and i\'d make that bitch get a paternity test for sure. You have alot of work to do man. get to it.

I second the paternity test.
But I empathize with you. I\'m in the same boat with a girl that I don\'t think is trustworthy but I love her.

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AstroD wrote: I second the paternity test.
But I empathize with you. I\'m in the same boat with a girl that I don\'t think is trustworthy but I love her.

I did get a paternity test. I bought a at home DNA test, but after looking at the reviews I choose not to use it. The at home DNA test doesn\'t count in court. I did an actually paternity test, the same one courts use for $120. It proved that I was the father, but she hasn\'t let me in my son\'s life at all. I only saw him 4 times for this year. I have taken her too court but still a long process. I regret ever being with her our \"relationship\" was full of drama and violence. I dont regret my son just her. I\'m married now and I am trying not to do anything that will mess up my marriage. Especially since I couldn\'t stop cheating on my fianc'e no matter how hard I tried, its hard to be around her but I also can\'t help but to be attracted to her.