I have pictures that I want to upload documenting some things but is taking me forever with all of life\'s challenges. I will try to get to it later but I need to post now before too much time has past.
Since my last posting...
The size has done some rollercoaster moves. One day it felt so thick that I had to measure. It was 5.75 circ, 5.5 mid, 6.25 base. The strangest thing is that it didn\'t feel swollen and when
Erect was nice and firm. This didn\'t last too long though.
I refrained from sex from the last time I complained about the pain here till last night. That seems to be about 3 weeks. I still had discomfort last night around my ligaments at top base. She was grinding pretty well though. Still, not fun.
My size has diminished considerably the last couple of weeks. I guess there is no more swelling. Accept I do notice that the circ area is still considerably larger than the rest both
Flaccid and
Erect.
The pain that I had mentioned earlier on the left side where the \"fix\" injection was placed turned into a very rubbery mass of tangled flesh, harder than the rest and very noticeable to the touch. I have a large, very hard lump there that I believe was caused from the second injection and the entry point that was already closed in the same spot. I believe it would have been better for the Doc to reopen that entry point and let it ooze, or allow me to \"milk\" it. I don\'t like it. It is very noticeable at all times and a bit uncomfortable to touch.
Right now I am having the same kind of dull pain on the right side just opposite of where I had it on the left, at circ scar. The same thing is happening here... It is turning into a rubbery mangle of flesh and I am getting a lump (or
Nodule) on that side as well.
I have been massaging these areas regularly, and I will say that it has helped but I feel like I have VERY little control over the outcome.
I am still not going to do a measure until a month and am starting to believe that the process of healing is still going to be longer and measurements will change (diminish).
Even though there is some size increase, I am not exactly happy with the current outcome. The pain and nodules are very annoying and of course the fact that I have no control over the shape, the feel, or diminishing those nodules has me frustrated.
I have mentioned the massaging here in the forum and have gotten some advice to leave it alone, but then mentioned the same information to some health practitioners of mine that did say to keep massaging it. I would have to agree... the information that I received from my wound care specialist some years ago told me that massaging is incredibly important to keep scar tissue in a \"formed\" or aligned cellular growth as apposed to just a tangled mass that looks and feels abnormal. Now, granted, I am not sure if that is what we want in our penises... maybe that tangled mess is what creates the size, but personally I desire a very natural feel as well.
When I post the pictures you may notice that in the
Flaccid state, you can see that uniformity of growth is not even and makes it look a bit twisted. Another thing I am not totally happy with but am riding it out to see what the outcome is. This was exactly my issue with fillers... the difficulty in uniformity.
I have read that a lot of you guys before me have had a lot of your issues rectified by going back... right now I just hope a lot of my life\'s challenges will subside so that I can. I would definitely like for these lumps to go away... It is REALLY bothering me.