SO - I am not sure how to reply... I mean, I don\'t feel negatively affected by things here. On the contrary, posts by bruno, smalljay, DWD, and jimmyjames make me feel better...especially because wade has ignored 90% of what I asked him in the last 8 weeks. I wanted to get Hoddle\'s advice about the scars because he\'s been through that. I\'m honestly not sure where the bad parts come in. I am not going to do what darkstaff did. I am not going to delete my whole journal in a crazy rage... I can\'t figure out what the issue is that you see - honestly. But, I will explain more below.
The small intervention I am doing at 9 weeks is going to address a
Nodule that is over 6 months old and another one that sticks out the worst. I am leaving the rest alone - and giving it time, as you said. I think that plan is reasonable. The injections of 5fu and
Kenalog are more effective if done early before the collagen forms...so that\'s why I did those at weeks 3-6. They didn\'t help much though, since we used a low/conservative dose. Wade wouldn\'t reply when i asked what dose dr. c uses.
One thing you should know - and I never really wanted to say - is that I have a PhD & work at a research hospital...so my way of analyzing a problem & approaching problems can look a little crazy from the outside. My dad is also a doctor, and I grew up with him endlessly searching through books and journals in the house to figure out how to treat patients who had complicated issues (rather than blowing them off like most doctors). We are very similar. This time, I am the patient...and my personality is the same as my dad...plus I am pretty \"focused\" (or crazy) considering I spent 2 years doing research & writing a dissertation on a topic nobody else would ever care about...but this time, we are talking about my penis - not some abstract topic. The border between neurotic obsession & drive to fix a problem is grey, I think. Maybe there is some of both, but I don\'t look normal to most people... even other PhDs have commented that I am a little obsessive. I often sit with the same data set for 12 hours and don\'t eat or move until the problem is solved... it\'s just how I can be. (I don\'t have aspergers). I think if we want to talk about \"abormal\" behavior here - maybe we should focus on people who are >6\"
Girth and still unhappy...not on someone like me who had a big deformity and just wants to look normal...and isn\'t even really 5\"
Girth.
And, it\'s 10x worse since
Avanti Derma won\'t work with me. They won\'t even let me schedule an appointment (for unknown reasons). They won\'t put doctor C on the phone, they won\'t discuss the difference between excision and subcision to resolve the nodules. They won\'t give me the
Kenalog or 5fu dose that they use. It\'s very very frustrating. They won\'t tell me how to determine the difference between a hematoma and a product clump. They wouldn\'t respond to my requests for a sample of metacrill that I could have had analyzed months ago. As far as treatment - their excuse was that it was too early to do anything and that I must have ruined the results with my aftercare (despite staying from tues to friday). Well, now we\'re at 9 week, so what is the excuse? They\'re mad I went to American doctors - ok - got it...well, second opinions aren\'t a foreign concept. Sorry I didn\'t want my penis to turn out like Jonthomas and can\'t jump on planes to TJ on a whim...and spend $1000 in travel fees for a
Kenalog injection I can get down the hall.
You can see in my journal that I\'ve been going through penis problems since 2010...so I know my own body as well in this regard. I\'ve been through oral therapy, insanely painful injections of verapamil, flights all over the country to meet with peyronie\'s specialists, and ultimately plication surgery. In these cases, had I acted more quickly & aggressively - I probably wouldn\'t even be on this board because the damage wouldn\'t have been as extensive. Unfortunately, I didn\'t have the access to doctors back then that I do now. The idiot doctor I saw at my school\'s health service gave me vitamin E for the first year that I could\'ve been on Trental and potentially reversed the whole thing.
TL;DR: I am just sick of all this and want it to be over.