Thanks Boston and sorry everyone for taking so long to update my progress, if you can call it that.
Made it home very late Mon night and had a very long day at work yestserday, The last I wrote I was freaking out about how small and shriveled up my
Dick was, well how things have changed! Now it\'s all blown up, looks like fluid, and I\'m wondering if the drain was taken out too soon! F*CK!
Elist didn\'t even bother to show up for the appointment I had on monday, to take the drain out, some other guy who claimed to be a doctor took it out, left a big gaping hole where the tube came out, and basically said massage it, starting right away, and start pumping at the end of this week?!
I can barely touch it! and I\'m supposed to pump it? I don\'t think so! By the way, he charged me 400 bucks for the pump! I didn\'t fight it though, I just wanted to get the hell out of there for the last (I hope) time!
The more I know about this implant thing the more obvious it is that the penis is way to fragile a body part to have a chunk of silicone crammed into it, or even under the skin of it ! I mean it\'s so apparent to me now. I feel for you Boston, but I\'m afraid your on the right track with your current instincts. I guess I should at least feel thankful that I never gave any thought to replacement. I still remember the first time I came across the old MNS site, and yes it really was after I had the implant, by just a week or so, ( a week too late looking back) and I remember Hoddle saying that it just doesn\'t make sense putting a static device into a dynamic organ, (or something like that) and it just made so much sense, but then I thought,..... why are all these guys getting it and liking it? so I allowed myself to just go with it, shit.... what could I do? I already had the damn thing in me. At first I thought I was dying from the pain and all the shit with the drain at home and a short but scary infection, so when all that went away, finally, after about 6 weeks and I started having sex with it, I thought, man this thing is pretty cool. Even though I didn\'t go into it for the extra size, I must admit I was well..... smitten over the whole thing, looking in the mirror thinking.... wow! a porn star would be proud! but it wasn\'t long, when the swelling really all went down, which takes months, that you begin to feel all the sharp edges and how thin the skin actually is over that foreign object in you. Then when one of the corners started sticking up and my wife could feel it. Actually she never was all that impressed, she never had kids so isn\'t very stretched out, she liked it OK but never really said much about liking it. She always just said if I liked it, then she did to, but also that it was always perfectly fine before. When your with the same woman all the time for years your
Dick doesn\'t always get super hard, and when it wasn\'t, the edges were even more apparent, especially if looking down when your having sex from the top view, it actually looked pretty stupid! so of course then I was becoming very self concious about it, which of course made it that much harder to keep super hard which turned into a vicious cycle, so much so, that it really started to affect our sex life, at least as much as fifty some yrs old people have. So when I started asking her about getting it out she was very supportive. It was, looking back, a hard decision though, because I always thought, what If we would get divorced some day? wouldn\'t it be cool to impress the ladies with this monster? I now wish I would have gotten this thing out sooner, it did no good for our marriage. Not to mention the fact that if I want that again there is always
PMMA, which I would do at a reasonable rate and amount, if I ever do.
Ok back to now..... I do feel a bit less anxious than I did yesterday, and my sleepless night last night, because it hasn\'t gotten any more swollen today and is just slightly red or pinkish in color, that and I don\'t have a tempurature at all. So hopefully it\'s not infected, and it just needs to absorb that fluid that would have been draining out. I even tried some ice and that seemed to help a tiny bit. Any idea\'s of course would be greatly appreciated. Oh, I almost forgot, I\'ve now got a smaller dark red spot on the under side of the glans! wtf! never even had anything done to that?! unless they had some clamp on there during surgery or something? hopefully it\'ll just go away. I\'ll keep posting what I HOPE will be progress on here, and anyone can feel free to add whatever to this thread. I only wish those pics weren\'t on the first post on this thread, as to fool some poor sucker into something they will surely regret.
All I can say is what a collosal f*cking disaster this whole Elist silicone nightmare! PLEASE! if any guy see\'s this that is STILL thinking about getting this thing put in??!!! well I guess the rest goes with out saying........... good luck all!