I want you to know I have see nothing but a caring , humble , hard working man when I read your posts. The reason you have not been able to
yourself is not because you don\'t have the
Balls is because you are worth to much! Please please do not ever think of doing that again!! Look around and see the bad things that are happening from not so good people. We need good men like yourself to continue to do good things!!! I will not pretend to know what you are going through, we all have our own walk, but you are only focussing on your perceived faults. Outside looking in from very limited knowledge of your situation I have a few things to give you advice.
- sell the burdens that keep you from your dreams. If bills are keeping you from them find a way to get rid of or reduce the bills that are burdening you!!
- I don\'t know where you look for women but a good place to start is usually a church. They may not be perfect but they at least are trying. Second would be an online service, feel them out for what kind of person they are. Don\'t concentrate on looks . Forget finding one in the bar or club, good chance they may have many problems they will bring with them.
-get a plan with goals to achieve them . Know that this will not be over night. But every step you make is towards your goal. I know you can do this because of your PE story.
- do things that are uplifting to you, go after things you are truly good at, maybe different than you think.
- go to church, find out how you are not alone in this journey! Btw most important !!! Now you matter!! We need more good men, please don\'t forget how important that is!!!
Take care and God Bless
Pm me any time if you need talk! You are a good man!
Btw these are just thoughts and they helped me, you can use then or not ! Very simple things I am typing on an iPhone so hard to get detailed.