Its been almost three years since my first R, and two since I got my R2 and R3. My perspective and opinion has gone up and down over the course of this time on whether I\'m happy with it. I\'ll take your recent reservations as an excuse to sort of share some thoughts.
It all comes down to this, because of my mentality, my insecurities, my sexual attraction preferences, and my sort of developed obsession Im fixated to some degree on big cocks. I\'ve been envious, and probably always will be of guys with big and monster dicks, even the ones that are a bit too much. So, if I wouldn\'t have done the
PMMA, I would still have this, and the fact my penis didn\'t live up would cause me trouble. So now that I do have a bigger
Dick, I am generally better about all this, I like being hung. I like getting reactions from people with it, and it does give me confidence. However, obviously there are still bigger and that brings envy still, especially massive natural dicks because they were lucky enough to be blessed by birth while I had to drop some money and effort and risk for mine.
Which sort of brings t the topic of the biggest worry, in that a
PMMA Dick is not a natural
Dick. The
Flaccid looks different, of course, its smoother, and bigger. This draws attention of course both good and bad, but to the concerning person its enough to give away that you\'ve done something. I\'ve had a friend at a urinal look over and be like, what did you do to your
Dick? I tried to play it off, and hes like whatever whatever you can say what you want but thats not natural, I don\'t care good for you, but its not haha. Truly big guys will have some long flaccids, but rarely do they look like what a
PMMA Dick will give you. Secondly the anatomy is off. If someone knows the anatomy of a
Dick and how it works, its clear a
PMMA Dick is different. Even with thick skin guys, the bulk of a penis comes from the internal structures that fill up. With
PMMA the bulk comes from the outside, the movable skin. Also the
PMMA blocks any opacity of the skin to the inner structures which a lot of penis have, you can see through the skin to the muscle. So the way it feels and looks can be a bit off here. You lose most of characteristic big veins that penises often have on the outer skin in place of a network of fine veins. You usually lose the appearance of the bulking urethra pipe down the \'spine\' of the
Dick, not everyone\'s is large and super visible but most large dicks have a clear section here. And then of course the feelin can be off, the density of the
PMMA can vary and in stages between
Flaccid and hard it can be noticeable.
Anyways, rant aside my summary is this. If you put a natural big
Dick next to a
PMMA big
Dick you\'ll immediately see the difference and know which one isn\'t natural. For the most part feeling both would reveal the same. For most of you guys this really isn\'t a problem because you\'re going to not be in this situation. You\'re one on one with a girl, perhaps more, and for most women even the more loose aren\'t penis experts. I mostly sleep with guys and so its a whole different ball game for me. I get a bit of anxiety when I\'m about to hookup with someone wondering if they\'re gonna tell and call me out, and sometimes this translates to erectile dysfunction which is not only lame but also a bit more revealing as a floppy
PMMA Dick feels off too. Besides the incident above, I\'ve had a handful others, either because it was just big, they felt an irregularity, or they were familiar enough to other types of enhancement like pumping or silicone that they could guess. But as its happened more than a few times, I\'m sort of more okay with it or its potential occurrence. Only a super big size queen with a negative personality would ever call someone out negatively.
So my current thoughts are this;
Dont get so cocky you invite criticism to your size, stay humble. After getting
PMMA I was getting so off on my size that if someone didnt immediately comment or remark on me being hung in bed I\'d get ego hurt, or if they were as big as me. Also don\'t let your new size lead you to partners or scenes you don\'t belong. Don\'t go chasing promiscuous sluts looking for affirmation, and don\'t join a XXL club haha.
You are never going to be the biggest, nor ever be a naturally blessed person, you\'re lucky enough to get an upgrade but realize its not perfect. Either be okay playing it off, or embrace it. If you want the best chance of pretending its still mostly yours use \'pumping\' as an excuse, either current or past over-pumping which has led to some lingering \'strangeness\'
You most likely won\'t have a \'beautiful\'
Dick. Realize this doesn\'t matter, an most won\'t even consider it.
And personally, I wish I had maybe not pushed it so far. With my length and head size I\'m really on the awkward proportions line. I\'m 7.5-8in and I think my over 6in of
Girth through
PMMA was pushing it for reasonable feel and aesthetics. People considering going forward really objectively look at your head size and what will look good with it, as well as realize that increases of
Girth via
PMMA of 1.5+ are probably going to be more articifical feeling.
