TOPIC: Ned11's journey

So this is/will be my journey. Normally I do not share anything about me. Even to most of my friends. The reason I am doing it here is mainly because we are all going through a very personal matter and mostly because some of you have written unashamedly about your experience. Y'all have come completely clean about your experiences and even posted photos to help each other. There is a closeness and willingness to help that I have not seen elsewhere.
I so wish I could write an autobiography like messageman. Wow, how well did he write his story. Then others like Mustang and Miracle, their stories really hit me. It's crazy how some of y'all have been writing here for years and going through your posts you really begin to care about them all. Some really good people on here. Thank you all for sharing.
My journey is really boring unfortunately. No 100's of beautiful women. Just a kid who was very skinny and has a small penis. I'm 47 now so even before porn on the internet I knew mine was small. It did keep me from making the first move on ladies. What if I did get them? What was I going to do to back it up. Whip out this tiny Dick? So I just stayed a beta male. Hard to be the Alpha when you have the smallest Dick and it didn't help that even in high school I was only 5'7 and weighed a mere 105 pounds. Yes, most of the females weighed more than me.
With zero male influences in my life and having been raised by a family of females I decided to go where men are made; the United States Marine Corps. That will make me a man. I was in the Reserves, but thanks to a few things I ended up spending abouty half of it on active duty. Well, the experience taught me a lot, and toughened me up, but even at the end of the day I was still a very scrawny man who avoided showering as much as possible because I was small everywhere. And as most of y'all know, Marines are usually very big men who are Alphas. With peckers to match. And all that helped reinforce my small size in my head.
Now I have been lucky to have a few women that have had sex with me. Some even seemed to enjoy it. But there were a couple that seriously when I put it in, I couldn't feel nothing. Yes, I found out that they have had many many partners and so I guess I was dealing with a larger whole, but damn, you want to please a woman and when you stick it in and get no reaction. That just helped reinforce my lack of manhood. Now there was few I pleased. As others on here have said, if you have a small Dick you make sure you can please the ladies other ways. So there was lots of foreplay. And for the most part it works, but face it, eventually you have to put it in.
That is what eventually lead me here. I googled every now and then over the years hoping to see there was a miracle cure to make them longer and fatter. But nope. Just fake pills. I did eventually 5 years ago actually gain some weight going from 140 to 175 in 4 months. So I went from skinny to having a pot belly. Life did not want to give me a break. Then after another failed relationship this year, which I do partly blame on my size, I searched again for a bigger Dick. And lo and behold, the holy grail!! Dr. Elist. I can have length and Girth!! It doesn't get better than that. So I thought about it. It is $13,000 dollars, but hell, that is nothing for finally having a swinging Cock. A month later i google again, just in case there is someone closer or maybe cheaper. Still he pops up all over google. Awesome reviews. I see stuff for fillers, but hey look at those pictures of really deformed cocks that had it. Not for me. Dr. Elist is the man though from what I can tell on google.
Now this is still a huge decision. Afterall you only get one Dick. So I wait a littler longer to do it. I have to wait a few months till I get some more vacation anyway. Finally, after a few bad dates, I am done. I need a bigger Dick. That's all there is too eat. I am calling tomorrow and set up an appointment with Dr. Elist. But it's late and I'm drinking and what the hell. Let's just google some more. So I do. But this time I type in his pneuma implant. Well Pneuma. And after a few pages there is a forum talking about it. Hmm, seems interesting. Some guy named Mustang2020 is going off about it. His story is bad. It doesn't match the reviews coming from Elist though. Obviously he is that 1% where it just went wrong. But I will keep reading. Ok, this doesn't sound good and this isn't just someone mad it is someone who seems to actually know what he is talking about. But hey looking at the date of his posts this happened in 2011. That's eight years ago. Obviously there have been major improvements from Dr. Elist. Right? I mean I want a bigger Dick. He is offering it too me. I can have it. His website says so. And who is this Mustang guy anyway?? How dare he say stuff about the guy who is going to give me the Dick I deserve. But I read more. And seems there are others saying the same. So I look around this PhalloBoard site. These damn people telling me my future Doc is a butcher. Damn them. I want a big Dick. This can't be true. Please don't let them be right. I deserve a normal size Dick. Please?
But the more I read, the more proof. The more facts. And at the end of everything, I always have to go with logic and truth. And thanks to Skeptical One, and the posts of so many others. You all prevented me from the biggest disaster in my life. I was going to pay a pretty penny for someone to mangle my penis.
So now I am deciding which to go for PMMA or HA. I am fairly sure PMMA with Dr C. I like the reviews so far. Don't get me wrong, I like Dr. Oats too. He has been so helpful with his advice. And oddly enough my work almost sent me to Australia for 3 months. I was like, if this happens I am going to Dr Oats, but work put the trip on hold. Also, I do want something a bit more permanent though. How does one explain to a girlfriend why every 6 months or year that you have to make a trip out of town and also that your Dick is feeling fuller again? So I guess it is Dr. C in Mexico. Or Dr. M, both sound excellent. I have a few things to get in line then hopefully in 3 months I will have the procedure. Yes I will have lots of questions for y'all. And I do know most of the answers are in the forum and I have read a huge amount of them and learned a lot. (Side point really want to do Miracles Testosterone regiment). But as it gets closer I will get more nervous and ask a bunch of questions. I apologize. I am just looking for reassurances. I hope y'all will understand.
Side point, I had a few improvements in mind for myself this year, besides a normal Dick size and I just got LASIK done. So next is my Dick, then hair and during that all, exercise and nutrition. I wouldn't mind being able to pose like Dancing with Wolves for a pic. Right now all you would see is belly and in the distant a faint view of a penis. Also, I seem to be the only person here who natural Girth is actually smaller at the base than at the mid section. That doesn't help during sex.
My goal though isn't to be the biggest Cock. I just want to get above the 50 percentile.
And a big point to me here is also about membership. The moment I realized how this site saved me money and MY Dick I became a member. A lifetime member. I may only need the advice here for a few months or years, but I think $100 is such a small price to pay in just gratitude to a place that saved me from Dr Elist and the many surgeries I would have needed after. Think about it. One hundred dollars vs the 20-50 THOUSAND DOLLARS we would be pay to fix that disaster. Well worth the donation. Well worth buying everyone who told their story here a beer too.
And could messageman please post chapter 8???

So now my measurements
Before:
FL= 3.25
FG next to head 4.375'
FG midshaft 4.375'
FG Base 4.000'

EL= 5.5'
EG next to head 4.5'
EG Midshift 4.75'
EG Base 4.5

As you can see, I am in the bottom 25%
I will post pics at a later time.
Now let's see how this journey goes.

So now my measurements
Before:
FL= 3.25
FG next to head 4.375'
FG midshaft 4.375'
FG Base 4.000'

EL= 5.5'
EG next to head 4.5'
EG Midshift 4.75'
EG Base 4.5

As you can see, I am in the bottom 25%

Actually, according to the link below you\'re 51% for EL, 62% for EG and 60% for total volume:

sizemeup.info/

And make sure to read where they got the data:

sizemeup.info/average.html

Thank you think. Your chart is very helpful. I was looking at another chart before, one I had seen on here, and it was placing me in the bottom 25%. So it nice knowing I'm a little closer to normal.
But I do believe the real test is how a man fits inside the woman. Unfortunately at my age, majority of women have had babies already. My Girth just doesn't really match like I wish it did. I am mostly thinking about for her pleasure.
And the fact mine goes smaller at the base. That just doesn't make sense to me. So that something I plan to have fixed and enhanced.

Does anyone know if in America one can use FMLA to take time off work for this? I have other plans for my vacation time and was curious if anyone had used it to cover missed work?
When I had my LASIK surgery I was able to use FMLA. So I just realized maybe I can use it for this too?

So I am scheduled in June at Dr C. So before during and after, is there any extra things I need to be doing. I have seen high levels of Vitamin C, rollers and such on this site. So I ask because so many have done PMMA over 10 years here, what is the general consensus on wise pre, during, and post op procedures?
If one could do it again, what would you take more attention to, or what else would you do. What part of rubbing would you focus on?
I am actually going to stay 4 days there. Mainly and solely so that I can go to them each day to make sure I am doing the best care of it I can
Any advice would be appreciated.

Congratulations on your decision! It was a leap for me but I\'m so glad that I made it. As for pre-care, shave yourself. The doctor will appreciate a clean smooth working surface. Bring some books, etc to occupy your time. I don\'t recommend venturing too far from the hotel, especially at night. Take as many visits per day that Ian offers. He may not be too busy and its possible to see him 3-4 times.

Did you purchase the utmost package? Has some extras that I fell helped me heal (I had no bruising at all) like PRP and the light/laser therapy.

My penis needed very little manipulation. Dr. M did a great job in placement of the PMMA. I felt the using the thumb as directed was the best tool to manipulate the PMMA.

As for supplements, I don\'t subscribe to the exogenous ingestion of Vit C, collagen etc. If you\'re serious and have access, testosterone and growth hormone may improve your results.

You will be so happy with your new penis. The 4 day stay is a great decision and so worth the extra care.

Thanks for the advice KRichard. I am super excited about this. While I know this treatment will only get me over the 5' Girth mark, I will feel a bit more manly down there. And yes, the reason for staying longer is to try to get as many visits with Ian as I can get. I'm not taking any chances on this. Well, besides the one risk of using PMMA.
I might check out getting testosterone. I used to take it a couple of years ago. Strange thing was, once I felt it having a positive effect on me, the Doctor decreased the amount and I just went back to how I was feeling before. I wasn't a big fan of the shots but I heard they can insert something i thinknin your back that slowly releases over a year time span. Not sure how that works but would be better than needles all the time.
Side question if anyone might know. I havent seen anything on here but there are still a lot I have yet to read. My question is there a length to width ratio that corresponds to the 'optimum' penis size? For instance I'm 5.5' length would 5' Girth be just right, what about 6 inches Girth? Should width always be less than the length? Any thoughts on this anyone?

They do have pellets that get implanted in your butt cheek, for testosterone. I feel it is better than the shots. Have had it for 3 months now.

@sinisterone how often do you have to get them replaced? Every 3 or 6 months? Or do they last for a year? Did you go to your doctor or a men's (anti-aging) clinic?
I found two places near me that do testosterone. Well two men's clinics. One does do pellets and says how they help keep testosterone level the whole time. The other place does injections and states that pellets makes the testosterone levels fluctuate too much. Now I feel like I can't trust either one.
Sixty-five days left till my PMMA

Kudos to you Ned for trying to improve yourself. Self-improvement is a lifestyle, and it looks like you\'re dedicated to getting better every day. Good for you!

i do pellets and find it way superior to injection or troches. levels and mood stays way more stable with pellets.

I have some thoughts on female ideal size. You might be surprised. We have one data set that is a very good indicator of what is ideal: men's average size. Obviously everyone is different and the studies that have measured have had varying results. So a meta analysis is a good place to look. Sites like sizemeup and howlongismyschlong compare you to multiple data sets, and I'd say 50% is 'ideal' or 'optimum' yet we was men probably want to be as close to 100% as possible, but that's our issue/preference. Another data set would be from thevisualiser.net where they've collected a few data sets for you to compare against, including their own validated numbers and asking for women's preference (self identified not mate selected)