I can see your point that it\'s easy to get over something you have no control over. Sometimes I wonder if I\'d be happier if I New for a fact the was absolutely no way to enlarge the penis, and there were literally no options available because I think my mind would adjust to the reality and I\'d just get stuck in and make the best with what I\'ve got, but because there are options it kind of keeps you clinging on to this fantasy and slightly ludicrous idea of having a large penis.
There\'s something addictive about it as well, like if I knew what I know now prior to having a procedure I\'d probably be able to say no, but since I had a procedure that didn\'t go to plan and that I\'ve spent the last 2 years thinking about it, it\'s like I\'m at the point of no return and there\'s something inside me that won\'t let the idea go, and I don\'t think il stop until I\'ve either destroyed my penis or I\'ve successfully enlarged it.
It traps you in this crazy cycle.
For me at least I think the psychology behind it is that because I\'ve invested so much thought, time, efffort, money into this idea I don\'t view it as something that\'s worth giving up and feel as though I have no choice but to continue.
Once you\'ve had Phalloplasty there is no going back.
Clear-headed, scary post. Beautifully clear description of the demons in your head.
I wish you all the best Reklaw. One day you will move on.You should become a psychologist.
