TOPIC: Penile Dysmorphic Disorder

I think my obsession stems from being ultra competitive. For some reason I always wanted the respect of my peers and from being good at sports etc I always got it. I was seen as a bit of an alpha male among my young buddies. So discovering I had a small penis, was something me ego simply couldn\'t take. In a pretty short time I went from being very ambitious to feeling as if even trying to be a successful man was a waste of time. So I guess the answer lies in why I felt the need to have the respect of my friends from such a young age.

Sadly my surgeries were never successful, so didn\'t do anything to help with my mental state. However, before the problems became obvious, when I first took my bandages off, things looked pretty good and for that very brief moment, I felt pretty damn brilliant! This is why, despite having gone through 10+ surgeries, mainly for reconstruction, I still have ambitions for a successful enlargement, as the brief time for which I thought I had a big penis, my depression was alleviated. In reality penis size isn\'t the root cause of my problems, but I know for a fact that it is a solution to them and nothing else has even come close to succeeding. A fortune has been spent on therapy etc and never once did I feel as if I had made in progress at all, yet when I took the bandages off from my scaffold surgery and saw a large, albeit swollen, penis, I felt as if the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders.

Hi Hoddle
Thank you for sharing.
Do you feel that enlarging your penis alleviated your depression (at least to a degree)?
What do you believe may have been the genesis of your obsession?

I\'d imagine quite a few of us have this issue. It\'s no exaggeration to say my preoccupation with my penis size has ruled and ruined my life. I literally feel as trying to achieve anything in life is pointless without having a big penis, as I can\'t feel content without one. That isn\'t an exaggeration either. I\'ve tired therapy with countless psychologists and lots of different SSRI\'s, but nothing seems to work. Unfortunately my issues started at such a young age, it\'s pretty much ingrained in me and is a source of constant anxiety. I wouldn\'t say I feel suicidal, though when I was younger and before I knew of surgical PE, I did think about it, but I do feel a sense of pointlessness to my existence and it\'s all because of PDD.

hoddle10 wrote: I\'d imagine quite a few of us have this issue. It\'s no exaggeration to say my preoccupation with my penis size has ruled and ruined my life. I literally feel as trying to achieve anything in life is pointless without having a big penis, as I can\'t feel content without one. That isn\'t an exaggeration either. I\'ve tired therapy with countless psychologists and lots of different SSRI\'s, but nothing seems to work. Unfortunately my issues started at such a young age, it\'s pretty much ingrained in me and is a source of constant anxiety. I wouldn\'t say I feel suicidal, though when I was younger and before I knew of surgical PE, I did think about it, but I do feel a sense of pointlessness to my existence and it\'s all because of PDD.

Like I would have written it myself. The size has held me back from so many intercourses with beautiful women and given me so many depressions over the years. I have never wished more for anything than just the one thing we men cannot achieve by ourselves - a big Dick.

I\'ve been doing manual exercises for years with some success but I still feel very small, or should I say thin. I know that my length is above average. Looking in the mirror my length seems just average and it looks like a damn chop stick because the mid to the top is only 4.5-4.7\" in Girth, while my base is 5-5.5. I still wish that no serious issues appears from people that have had PMMA so that I can have it done myself soon. I feel like its the last thing I need to do to make myself complete.

I don\'t know if I suffer from the disease because I think that I would be very happy with life if I had a 5.5+ Girth and could focus on other things that mattered. How can you as a competitive male not get affected by stories, todays media, movies and especially porn? We all have friends or girlfriends who have mentioned the size of someones Cock, we all watch movies where they say that bigger is better and we all (most of us) watch porn where most of the guys are hung like horses. We see people making fun of others (especially on film) with small penises like everyone who has a small/average penis is a loser. Why did the nature construct us in this way where we can build muscles but not increase the size of our love muscle?!

Please let PMMA work for all of you who needs it and may you all live a happier life!

I feel this topic needs to be pinned. It\'s becoming increasingly apparent that a high number of our members experience this (including myself) to some degree. Penile dysmorphia is not much different than an anorexic girl believing she\'s morbidly obese (in an extreme example). But what makes penile/penis dysmorphia so brutal is that it has an impact on so many aspects of a man\'s psyche, including manliness/manhood, performance/performance anxiety, Girth-obsession (i.e. continual pursuit of gains by any means necessary), etc etc etc.

To the OP message man how did you gain 2 and a half inches of Girth on your Dick

100% accurate description of what I am going through right now.

duplicate...meant to edit... I \"quoted\" myself.

I think a lot of people on this other board have the same issue: sebaceousprominence.forumotion.net/

I can understand the obsession w/ size especially bc I had a good friend who was anorexic in HS (and another in college) - and having Peyronie\'s totally f\'d with my head for many years (I lost a lot of size and am under 4.5 EG now) - but if someone is over 5.5 EG...realistically there\'s no reason to obsess over it - but \"reason\" isn\'t really the issue here. About the above link, I actually hate the sebaceous glands too - but some of the posters on that board are much more ocd about it. I couldn\'t imagine what would happen to them if they got Peyronie\'s & developed a size problem.

ovw wrote: So my conclusion is : you can get as big as you want, all sex becomes boring after a while.
People need change in their lives, also in sex.

My personal experience is that good sex depends as much on the size of the girls\' pussy then on the size of the guy\'s Dick.
A big pussy demands a big Dick, and vice versa.
Some girls are just too big for a normal Dick, and a girl with good pussy-muscles can please herself and almost any guy.
Maybe it\'s time for the girls to start putting PMMA in their pussy\'s, it\'s them that can\'t come easily, not us guys !
Why do we have to go through all this, it\'s the women\'s fault not ours ! We come with any pussy.
And if you have a girl who can easily come : they exist, even in large numbers, be happy about it, but don\'t forget: you\'ll get bored of it too, if she doesn\'t before you.

Most of what you say here is valid. The problem is that in the USA, A lot of men have lost their Balls to their women who now have Balls and can demand anything they want, and they get it! (again, no insult intended to any of the readers here)

Jonyoung wrote: To the OP message man how did you gain 2 and a half inches of Girth on your Dick

As hulk has already mentioned, much of the info you are looking for is in my \"Messageman\'s Journey\" thread. But in a nutshell, it took many years and tears...Dermal Grafts, scar tissue (from implant), and two sessions of PMMA...And lots of luck....

Had the same problem, solved it :
- no porn anymore (well, maybe once a month)
- squeeze your member really hard when its erect just before sex (just some simple jelqs, this makes the erection a lot harder and better lasting)
- breath deeply, inhale as much oxygen as possible

no more difficulty getting off, even with the widest pussy ever
5 minutes max, then restrain yourself, try again for 5 minutes and so on, try to last half an hour and then shoot like a devil )

umm I do not cum with any pussy. Its difficult to get me.off.

I have the same anxiety because my best friend ever, whom I know from when we were only children, has an enormous Cock.
His Dick is litterally 10 inches long Erect, and quite wide too (don\'t know how wide, but i\'ve been in the shower in the fitness with him, it seems at least 6 Inch width flacid, it\'s just incredible).
He is very self-conscious about it and knows all girls want to fuck him.

If you know such a guy from the beginning of self-awareness, let\'s say 6 years old, this gets printed in your mind.
I have had more and more beautiful women then he does, but I know it\'s just because he doesn\'t care, he can get them all if he wanted it.
When we were studying together girls would come over from other cities just to be devirginised by him, imagine !!

Now this doesn\'t mean he had better sex : the girls certainly did, but on the other side : he wasn\'t spared from relationship boredom either.
His previous girlfriend didn\'t want to fuck any more since their first child, only when he moved to another girl suddenly she wanted it again.

So my conclusion is : you can get as big as you want, all sex becomes boring after a while.
People need change in their lives, also in sex.

My personal experience is that good sex depends as much on the size of the girls\' pussy then on the size of the guy\'s Dick.
A big pussy demands a big Dick, and vice versa.
Some girls are just too big for a normal Dick, and a girl with good pussy-muscles can please herself and almost any guy.
Maybe it\'s time for the girls to start putting PMMA in their pussy\'s, it\'s them that can\'t come easily, not us guys !
Why do we have to go through all this, it\'s the women\'s fault not ours ! We come with any pussy.
And if you have a girl who can easily come : they exist, even in large numbers, be happy about it, but don\'t forget: you\'ll get bored of it too, if she doesn\'t before you.

Jonyoung wrote: To the OP message man how did you gain 2 and a half inches of Girth on your Dick

Why don\'t attempt to read his thread which details his journey?