I had a Fat transfer/ lig cut, Dec 16, 2017 and recently I've had a very uncomfortable pain on the bottom left side of my shaft, mostly when I have a Erection. The spot is very hard (thicker/harder than rest of penis when Erect) feels like trapped Fat causing my penis to lopside. My penis does not stand straight up anymore due to the lig cut and to make matters worse, aesthetically it now looks awful. Does anyone have any ideas of what I can do next in a process to correct this? Every time I look at my penis Flaccid/Erect it is causing me alot of anxiety/ insecurity to the point that I refuse to have sex with any girl right now (unless drunk or with lights off) and this is by no means a way to live at 22 years old. I've had multiple relationship fails in the past due to insecurities of the size of my shaft/glans and that's Initially why I got the procedure done in the first place. Originally I had a very small Flaccid length/ Girth and I had extra skin that wasn't cut around my glans from when I was a baby and I had a large web on my testicles that I had removed just recently.
When I was 15, after having my extra skin removed around my glans, I immediately lost my virginity to a older girl I barely knew, just because I was excited to use my penis. As I got older, probably around 17 I had a extremely attractive girl I knew tell me to my face that I had a small penis when I wasn't able to get hard. That completely traumatized me and made me very concerned about my size. Adapting to the thought that I had a small penis, I just got drunk whenever I would think I was going to have sex with a girl. I get flashbacks to this day trying to get hard in front of girls in the past and having anxiety through the fucking roof. I'm always regretting things like this because these are the girls that were actually really attractive and I feel I missed out on great experiences. Of the 8 girls I've actually had sex with, only one of them was actually really attractive but of-course I was drunk and kept the lights off to compensate.
I apologize for rambling on and talking about previous experience and all that bs, but I figured it'd only make sense to give a background story of my before/after surgery experiences that have led me to feel the way I do about my penis. If anyone has any advice for me, please let me know what you think.
Dude, here\'s a news flash, your penis looks perfectly normal. Why? Because no penis is perfectly straight, and the only way anyone will know that yours isn\'t, is if you tell them. No one is ever, ever going to know the difference. I\'ve had a leg cut, I stretched, and hanged, and no one has ever questioned me once about my penis. Just relax and enjoy your experiences, and so will your sex partners.