First of all, I want to echo everything thehulk has said. Second, I will be real in this post... so here it goes... I hope it makes sense haha I will basically type it out as I think it.
? I started with 4.5\"EG... It took me 4+ rounds to get over 6\" Girth
? At pretty much every \"touch-up\" round I thought to myself \"well you are spending all this money and time... why not make the most of the trip here and get a full round?\"
thehulk wrote: A huge factor is the mental side. If a person has low self esteem or a narcissist, they will compensate by any means they can, and if they are interested in PE, then PMMA can be their drug of choice (not really a drug, but you know what i mean).
-- OK maybe I\'m a bit narcissistic, but I like the drug comment... It is almost like a high, it\'s hard to explain. But essentially you get this big rush of excitement after a successful round. You feel like the fucking MAN. Eventually, it subsides and even giant sizes feel \"normal\" again, which leads to the temptation of wanting more.
Only now, here I sit basically at 8\" Girth
and sometimes I honestly hate it. Sure during sex (assuming my partner is enjoying it) it is great... but honestly. How the hell could anyone believe that what I have is natural. Or worse, how can I even walk around the men\'s change room without dudes thinking I am a freak or a weirdo?
It\'s a double-edged sword. I feel more self-conscious now at this size than I did at 4.5\"EG.
Now I am in a position where, if I am actually serious about someone when I start a relationship I have to either lie or tell the truth. Questions will be there. This kind of Girth
really doesn\'t happen naturally...
Lie and live your life as a lie. Sure maybe nothing happens down the line. But what if some complication happens? What if you have to tell the person you have been lying to for so many years, that loves and trusts you, that you actually lied about why your Dick
is so fat and that you went to Tijuana Mexico of all places to have a doctor inject plexiglass particles into your Dick
? --- Trust me in that, I\'ve been lying to a lot of people in my life and it does eventually play a toll on you. Especially when your Dick
is so fat that even jeans and normal work wear you have a noticeable bulge. Suddenly you get thinking more about it, even during the times when you should be focused on other things.
Tell the truth and run the risk of having that new person you meet think you are a weirdo, sex obsessed or anything in between.
Honestly, given my experience with lots of female partners. The reactions didn\'t change all that much from 6.5\" Girth
to now... if I could go back, I would have stuck below 7\" Girth
.... IMHO I got the best reactions / sex sessions between my rounds where I was 5.75\" Girth
to 6.75\" Girth
Sure I\'ve met a few size queens who go mad over the thick Girth
I have now... but they are so few and far between... and usually they aren\'t as hot as the chicks I can get normally anyway.
Keep in mind, sometimes I feel like my motivations for surgical PE are different then many here... Even though I was only 4.5\"EG before PMMA
, I never had complaints about my Girth
and I wasn\'t desperate or anything like that (I wasn\'t doing it because I felt like I had to in order to live a normal life or satisfy my partner better in some way). I had very regular sex with multiple women before PMMA
and I\'m not so sure me getting more size has ever been for my partner\'s enjoyment. I\'ve always been drawn to big Dick
porn and for me I think this is likely somewhat of a fetish for me. I am not sure why.
That being said. Many many moons ago I decided to not get any more PMMA
. Yes, Dr. C basically has said to me in the past \"no more PMMA
\" but, I\'ve also come to the realization that more size will only cause me issues from here. If I could rewind a bit of this size I think I would.
Especially this last year, I feel like something has clicked inside my brain... I have been smoking weed more lately which maybe has triggered these thoughts?... but honestly my desire for PE and Porn and sex, everything has dampened significantly and I feel ready to live a normal life again. I feel like I went from horny level 11/10 down to a more normal 6.5/10.
I used to make and sell my own amateur porn for gods sake (with actual actresses and webcam models). Now, I\'m lucky to masturbate twice in a week. Something has changed in the way I think... a positive change I\'d say.
I can\'t even say its because I am getting older... I am almost 30 now (which is still quite young)... but even doing a cycle of Testosterone during these last few months didn\'t make me want to fuck like I used to.
Go watch some Jordan Peterson videos on YouTube (his lectures or some of his longer form stuff... especially the stuff on sorting yourself out)... your perspective on what is and isn\'t important in life might change a bit.
I might add to this later I am not sure. But that\'s basically where I\'m at right now with this. If I were to start all over again, I wouldn\'t want what I have now. But that being said, I still feel very lucky to not have any complications and a Dick
that at least attempts at looking normal-ish at this size.