TOPIC: Never big enough

Just measured PMMA area at top of shaft. It\'s at 5.1 inches. Now I know this is average but it looked tiny. To the point I found it depressing.
Because if this I\'m wondering if I\'ll ever be at peace with it. I want to get to at least 6 Inch Girth along entire shaft. Maybe then I\'ll be okay.
Maybe I\'m that mental scarred that I\'ll never get over it. Desperate for second round now. It\'s all i can think of.

If Dr n refuses to give me enough for 6 Inch Girth I\'m off to Mexico. Don\'t care about the money anymore. Ill pay anything.

I don\'t know why you think it is mental scarring or anything negative at all really. ALOT of guys want a bigger Dick, a small subset research how to do it. No one would call you mentally scarred of you went to the gym all the time because you wanted your body jacked. It\'s not like there is no benefit to a bigger Dick, probably it is a bigger benefit than being built - although both give you more options and a bigger vocabulary about yourself. One of the things I have noticed about aging is that vocabulary gets a little smaller unless you make more of an effort. Just do it without beating yourself up. I have been busy on this board the last 24hrs

Hunky- I have lived in gyms for 20 years. Let me tell you a little secret. Those guys/gals you see in there every day? Not the regular ones, but the competitors? 90% are completely fucked up. Whether its little man syndrome, body dysmorphia, mental or physical abuse as a child or a spouse or pure unadulterated VANITY - everyone is trying to cover up something with the looks.
I don\'t have a addictive personality at all.. I have friends that are easily hooked on cigarettes, booze, oxy, etc- the only addictive thing I have is trying to stay young and look good.
I am praying I have the willpower to stop after 2 full trips to Dr C and a 3rd touch up.. Because like Nag, I think I am mentally scarred. If you read my story, it\'s right out of a horor movie.. if the killer in the movie had Dick from his elbow to his wrist and the victim was my ex girlfriend.
I just saw a documentary on Michael Jackson last night and they showed pics of his face surgeries. I was yelling at the TV, why didn\'t he stop after the second one!!
I need to keep that in mind. If I can do 3 sessions and not have a franken-Dick and come out 1 Inch bigger- I have to pull the plug on myself.

Brock-
I like your mindset on things. Great to have a goal, but also know when to say when.

Thanks Brice - but the mindset is only good if I follow through. I can see how one could get greedy for more and more results.
I\'m going to keep my thread updated this week, surgery Tues.. just remind me if I start to go off the rails. If I hit 5.5-6.0 EG, I\'ll stop!!

Hey Brock, yeah I agree. I have been going to the gym also for over 20 years. The guys I was talking about were the regular ones = not the ones that get crazy out of proportion and can\'t see it. I think you will find it is easier to stop going to Dr. C when you get to where you want than you think. Since you read this board you know there are so many potential complications - I always go with trepidation, not a carefree attitude. My plan was 2 full rounds and 1 touch up and then stop. I just had my 5th and last visit this week which sounds like a lot - but only 2 full rounds. The last 3 was just for a little PMMA or silikon here and there - legit touch ups. Each time I thought this could be the one that fucks things up. I also had a reconstruction so I had scar tissue areas that would take PMMA much slower. I only meant to naginati that wanting to do something about Dick size isn\'t by itself mental scarring. One of the best things I ever did for myself was to get the grafts even they died over a decade later. I had my fun and monies worth - and I am back looking really good after 5 years - it\'s one of the things that I am glad I have done but never recommend. On the other hand, I know there are loads of guys that would give anything to go back to where things started and never go near PE. I need to read your thread.

Thanks to all you guys.