Hi, I\'m a long-time lurker (I had another account just to look at the pictures) and finally ginned up the confidence to join the discussion and the community. I\'ve been reading, researching, and considering my situation for a long time.
I\'m about 5.6 NBPEL, but a base press makes about no difference due to the fact that I\'m pretty lean, and about 4.5 EG, uniform from top to bottom except the glans of course. Maybe a bit more when highly aroused and haven\'t gotten off in a while.
Flaccid is embarrassingly, painfully small: suffice to say I\'m a \"
Grower\" and unless I fluff it up before hand I\'m not \"showing\" to anybody, ever. The lack of size has become a definite problem for me. Although I love flirting and hooking up with girls like crazy, my anxiety about my \"little boner\" (as it was described by a close female friend/slut) really gets to me at times. Earlier this spring, for example, I failed to be hard enough at the right time to be able to penetrate with three different girls on three straight weekends, including one I really liked for a few years. That finally spurred me to go ahead and see a doctor, who prescribed me
Cialis. Although with the use of the pill I can definitely rise up to the occasion when necessary, I still feel like most girls aren\'t terribly responsive to even my best technique, which has really really sapped my sexual confidence and confidence in general.
After emailing back and forth with Dr. C\'s nurse Wade, and having read and read the site including the super long (and slightly contradictory) complications thread, I feel that I\'ve come to a few conclusions that are shaping my current decision one way or the other. For one, terrible side effects like
Necrosis do not seem to be occurring in Dr. C\'s patients. It seems also that the aesthetic problems tend not to be too bad for anyone after their first 10% treatment. Reading the progress reports and other threads, it seems like the aesthetic difficulties really take off after the second treatment. I\'d be willing to forego or wait a really long time for another treatment, and settle for a smaller boost to be on the safer side if need be. I just want to have decent
Girth and regain confidence. Next thing is that it seems that most people, with the notable exception of \"Cool Hand Luke,\" seem very pleased with their results. CLH\'s problems, though, do worry me, especially the possibility of migration and the health havoc it would wreak. Another problem is that I\'m not sure about relates to the long-term effects of
PMMA implantation.. since it\'s a relatively new field, I can\'t help but wonder if the longer term effects may be bad and not enough time has passed for them to manifest. For all we know, everyone with
PMMA will lose their junk to
Necrosis 20 years down the line or something. That inclines me to wait a few years and see what people say about their results in the future. On the other hand, I really want to get this done while I\'m young enough to enjoy it instead of sit around and fantasize about how much I\'d enjoy a bigger dong.
I\'m still corresponding heavily with Nurse Wade and I\'m strongly considering the procedure. I\'m definitely going to involve myself in this community for the time being as I weigh the decision.