Background
Male, Age: 31, single with no kids. Former D1 football player currently working in economics field.
Starting stats
BPEL x MSEG: 6.5" x 5.5" with a profound upward curve.
Circumcised.
Flaccid: 4” x 4”
GE Target
1-1.5" gain with emphasis on
Girth first round. I plan on having 2nd and 3rd rounds with emphasis on aesthetics
Narrative:
I know most people would say I have a perfectly above average size that even some posters here were aiming for as an end result, but I’ve never been truly content with my size. Even after several women have told me I’m big. I guess it’s due in part to body dysmorphia and my small
Flaccid size. Being African American, there’s a lot of us that suffer from body dysmorphia due to unrealistic and stereotypical expectations of what our penis size should be. I can go into all the history, and clinical research behind that but I’m not gonna bore you all today lol. Suffering from a long term porn addiction didn’t make things any better either. I feel fine with my size when fully
Erect but that happens so inconsistently with me, so I’m never able to achieve my actual
Girth of 5.5” during sex.
I’ve been troubled with a horrible sex life as long as I’ve been active. I’ve suffered from porn induced erectile dysfunction (PIED) and a jacked up pelvic floor as a result. I’ve never had an issue getting women in bed, but then when it’s time to perform I can’t maintain an
Erection. Even on the highest doses of viagra, 100mg+. Whenever I quit porn, eat healthier and exercise I start to see improvements, but then I relapse every time and fall into a cycle of pornography, unhealthy eating and inconsistent exercise. What’s funny is that I still manage to excel in my work and career. I also have a high metabolism and muscle mass from years of playing sports at a high level. I look perfectly fine and in great shape on the outside. Im making great money, beautiful women approach me, and I’m active in my community and giving back. But on the inside I’m broken all due to the gripes I’ve had with porn, masturbation, and sex. It’s a whole side of me that absolutely nobody knows about.
As we embark on a new year, I told myself enough is enough. I can’t go another year putting myself through this hell. This year I’m going to become the best version of myself by any means necessary. Whatever exercise, diet, regimen, enhancements (with caution of course), etc. I can do to become my best self, I’m going to first research and apply it to my life. I’ve tried a myriad of PE routines like Angion,
Jelqing, etc. to improve my erectile function but I never stuck to it long enough to see any significant results. After a relapse, I told myself I’m quitting porn and masturbation for good. I hopped on Reddit to read about any routines that people have done to improve erectile function. Thats how I stumbled across a few people who got the
PMMA procedure done, and expressed that their erectile function and sex life improved because their sensitivity increased from having more mass to work with while having sex. I was intrigued and took the next few months researching and even reaching out to a few of you to get your experience. I received nothing but rave reviews on the
PMMA procedure and the work that
Avanti Derma does. I saw Avanti was running a winter special, so I took it upon myself to reach out and book my first round in January. Hotel and shuttle are booked. I had a flight voucher I was able to use from switching flights this past thanksgiving, so my airfare this round is free.
Now finally it’s time. My appointment is tomorrow morning. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. I hate needles but I’ve successfully used bimix/trimix injections on myself several times so the concept of a needle going in my
Dick is not foreign or off putting to me. I’m mostly just concerned about the aftercare. I hope I don’t get an infection, too many irregularities, or have to deal with any significant pain. I have a warming pad to use every hour after for molding after the procedure. As well as disinfectant wipes to make sure I keep everything clean. Also, I’ve been porn and masturbation free for about a week now. I gotta keep it up. I’ve also started eating healthy again and start my workouts and a pelvic floor loosening and strengthening routine again when I get back from Mexico. I’ve started praying/meditating again and I’m also considering tripping out on some shrooms to put me in a different mental state lol. I’ve also bought mucana supplements and telmisartan to help up regulate my dopamine levels because they are fried from all the excessive porn usage. I will be in Mexico for 5 days. Luckily I have a very flexible job where I’m mostly remote, andI’ve gotten to the point where I’m very good at my job so I’m on autopilot with it. With that, I’ll be able to put full attention into my aftercare for the next couple months.
I’m looking forward to this next chapter of my life, and I’m hoping 3-6 months from now I’ll have a healthy sex life, be in better shape, and be more spiritually focused. I’ll be on a whole new trajectory in my life, and when I do eventually have a family, I’ll be able to pinpoint to this exact period in my life where I dug deep and fought off the demons I’ve been dealing with for well over ten years. Thank you to everyone who’s posted their progress on here as your experiences were of immense importance as I was researching on whether or not to go through with this. I’ll post my progress as the year goes on. Wish me luck!