TOPIC: Ellanse and ED treatment report (ED report in the second post) - squishy

Timeline: This is not a "I did Ellanse in year 202X" and here's where I'm still at, because since the COVID years I've had multiple top-up treatment sessions to correct unevennesses and fill in gaps, so my most recent session was 1 mil done in August this year. But I will not have anothe top-up treatment.
Stats: I have sex with men. My Erect length is 12~12.5cm, and before the procedures, my Erect circumference was 10.5cm. My current Erect circumference is around 14-15cm.
Appearance: When Flaccid, I have this quite visible turtleneck effect, because the collagen can't shrink when my penis goes Flaccid, so it just bunches up in the shaft, whilst my glans shrinks, so it's a very unnatural look, and I'm very self conscious to display my Flaccid penis to other guys because they all know it doesn't look normal. For numerous times I was asked by other patrons at gay bathhouses if I had done a "Dick-job" or a filler injection. And I don't know how to respond.
Erection quality/texture: I think because of the volume injected and therefore the collagen formed is too large, it adds a lot of weight and wears my penis down when I tried to have an Erection. And unless I achieve a 100% Erection (which usually takes me 2 weeks of abstenance and meeting a very attractive man who is completely out of my league), my Erection rigidity and hardness can reach an 8 or 9 out of 10. Otherwise, if the blood in my penis is not enough to have my corpus cavernosum press against the collagen, my sex partner can feel the collagen under my penile skin and it's softer (like a layer of some substance rather than just human flesh) than how a normal penis feels to the touch.
Sensitivity (and in comparison to ADM/AlloDerm/MegaDerm): Ellanse only produces collagen, it may be vascularised but nerves don't grow into the collagen, which means the sensitivity in my penile shaft is almost non-existent, to achieve orgasm, my only option is to stimulate the head. In comparison, I have read that not only blood vessels grow into the AlloDerm/MegaDerm matrix as it's integreated into the surrounding tissues, but nerves also grow into the matrix and the new tissues, leaving the shaft as sensitive as before. I also don't know if the better vascularisation in the matrix makes Erection stronger and more rigid.
Confidence on sex life: Initially, I went through the procedure to increase my sexual confidence, and to no longer be turned down for having too small a penis, but now quite often in a gay bathhouse, as soon as a guy has a feel of my penis, he walks off. I feel very frustrated.
Where to go from here/if I could travel back in time: I know that steroid injections can reduce the collagen formation, but I don't know whether the outcome will be even and smooth; I also know that despite Ellanse being branded as a semi-permanent treatment, the collagen is actually irreversable, and the only way to completely remove the collagen is to surgically remove it. As you can probably tell, if I could do it all over again, like if COVID border closures never happened, I would have flown to Korea or Taiwan (which has recently introduced the ADM procedure), or if the ADM procedure existed in my country, I would definitely have gone that route instead. But this would involve surgically removing the collagen without damaging my corpus cavernosum and nerves in the process, waiting for it to heal, then receiving the ADM surgery and waiting for that to heal. I'm just not too sure at this point. It seems that H-Acid is soft but reversable, Ellanse says its semi-permanent for up to 4 years but the collagen is really permanent and strips of my sensitivity and reduces Erection quality, have guys here done the ADM and are happy with a combination of sensitivity retention, Erection quality, evenness and the permanence of Girth increase?

So I went to an ED doctor in Bangkok and had some ED treatment done. Now, prior to the treatment, I'd take 20mg of Cialis or 100mg of Viagra and nothing would help. But this doctor gave me a P-shot and injected 100 units of botox into my CC, it's been more than 48 hours since then, and next week I'll be receiving a session of stemcell therapy.
Today, I tried to assess the outcome of the treatment so far, but I still took 100mg of Viagra -- because even Viagra didn't help me before, remember?
So I got a decent Erection, and with decent erections, measurements are more accurate. I'd still say this: I had way too much injection for my length and I wish my current Girth could go down by 2cm, especially more from the left side. Some part of the collagen still feels softish, and you could palpate the little squishiness, it's definitely not feeling like an engorged CC, but more like fat tissue. I think my only saving grace is that while I'm gay, I don't participate top or bottom, because I'm a side, so that means oral and masturbation only, so I don't have to wear a condom or try my hardest yet still not being able to penetrate.