Hello Gents,
This is my first post as previously I was a total lurker reading and not contributing. I really appreciate all of the posts relating each member\'s (no pun intended) personal journey. I feel it only fair to share mine as this forum has given me the fortitude needed to follow my own path.
Like many others on here, I have suffered from personal image issues. I have never physically had any complaints from women and post divorce women 10 years younger (I am 38) are all over me and tell me the sex is great. BUT...when you already have self doubt and low self esteem in regards to anatomy it can make even the best sex seem lacking.
I am a typical case of retraction, where I show way worse than I am fully
Erect. In bed this is not a huge issue since at 6.5\" EL and 4.5\" EG I am just below average. My main issue stems as far back as childhood where in a communal shower situation I was teased about my
Flaccid size. I have carried this with me for a very long time.
I was in a 17 year relationship that towards the end turned into a sexless marriage and later found out about multiple affairs during a time where I was completely faithful. The combination of having to become an independent person after a long relationship (I hadn\'t gone on a first date since I was 19) and my preexisting shame of my size (porn is not great for that) made it very difficult to feel I was truly able to please a partner.
It certainly doesn\'t help that I have weirdo friends who like to go camping in remote locations and go skinny dipping/clothing optional hangouts. I usually am one of two guys who does not take off his swim trunks; at least not in cold mountain river water!
I felt like I had done so many accomplishments in life and after 3 college degrees, a great engineering job and a new start in life, yet one thing was holding me back. The confidence that comes from feeling ok with my own body.
I decided to go to Dr. C at
Avanti Derma and just completed round 1 two days ago. First off I have to say that the staff there has done everything possible to make me feel at home and to take care of my needs. I showed up the day of the appointment and was so nervous I didn\'t eat. Wade had them go down and get some juice and a burrito for me. He refused my attempt to pay for it.
For me my goals are modest. I am not looking to have the hugest
Cock around but rather want enough enhancement that I feel I am at least average compared to a partner\'s previous experience and to feel uninhibited in my own skin. For me the psychological gain is the most important. I am tired of having to carry my shame around with me; regardless if it is valid in a relative sense, for me it was too much.
OK no more poor me stories. This is about my new self and the happiness I am progressing towards.