candybars wrote: No I\'m not freaking out.
Yes, yes you are. I haven\'t got a chance to review the newer progress reports but finally got around to it tonight, and this one in particular got my attention. Not because of the reaction of the
PMMA in your penis, but rather your over-reaction to the situation. I will join the chorus along with all the others here in reminding you to relax and that you are freshly post-op. I understand you have also had a less-than-stellar history with
Phalloplasty (dermal graft
Removal) and it makes sense why you might be quick to panic, but remember that you are freshly post-op and you need to give yourself adequate healing time before passing judgment on your situation.
For example, virtually every time I had a procedure, I had trouble getting erections during the healing stage. Heck, even with a
Cialis my penis was simply \"not in the mood.\" I could have become alarmed by this but I allowed it to fully heal and recover and then saw where things were. Lo & behold, my erections, length, sensations all returned to normal. What I\'m trying to say here is that you need to relax and complete the healing phase. Your pictures appear normal, and other than you mentioning the extreme pain, most of your base symptoms are typical of a post-op
PMMA penis.
As for the pain, I\'d also wait that out personally. You could simply be more sensitive to the pain. Or, for some, the possibility that mental paranoia or panic can induce a sort-of hypochondriac effect exaggerating the pain in one\'s mind (I\'ve heard of this theory, not sure how true/possible it is). Ultimately, like everything else with your penis (e.g. bruising, swelling, shortening), give it time and assess the penis after everything is completely 100% healed.
In the meantime, relax and get your mind focused on separate things (TV, radio, internet not involving this site, etc). Follow your post-op protocol as prescribed, but ignore anything PE-related for the time being. When I was healing, I usually took a week off the forum to help clear my mind, and it might work for you too.
Good luck.