Hey Folks,
Been a few months. Figure I\'d come in and share what\'s happened in the last three months. I\'m also not going to spell check or proof read this. Don\'t have time. So there\'s been good, there\'s been weird and there\'s been bad.... [ I\'m rereading this and it turned into a real rant. Sorry folks ]
So the bad:
The biggest thing is I think I \'damaged\' the implant. I would like to warn folks about being overly rough for long periods of time. I\'m also going to be honest because you guys need to know. About a month and half ago I was going through a really weird period of chronic sex and masturbation. So there I was being rough with my tool that was really sore from what I was doing all week. I felt something \'pull\' inside and I looked down and there was a large bulge on the left side near the tip the size of half a golf ball. It scared the living shit out of me and all I could think was \"Fuck now I got to go back to Mexico and spend a couple grand\". I also had a couple females who were not going to like me shutting them off.
I think whats happened is I\'ve \'pulled\' the implant away from the phallus near the tip and its retracted a bit. I was being really abusive with what I was doing. I blame what I was going through at the time ( I\'ll talk more about that in sec ). The bulge eventually went away however there is some retraction which has made it look not so contoured when flacid. It\'s something I can live with and will have to. The other thing is the ridge moved back a little ( which is good ) but now its really really hard like cartilage and isn\'t something I can hide. I tell women that I had surgery and its scar tissue. I\'m not sure if I\'m going to go back to fix it or not. I don\'t really have the cash on hand anyhow. If this has happened to someone else I\'d like to hear about what they did or what happened. I think it \'folded\' inward or something.
What I highly highly recommend folks do for the first 3-6 months is use something like a fleshlight to masturbate with. I\'ve been thinking about this for a while now and wish I had. Even slight masturbation using your hand within the first 2 months can create an uneven contour as the PMMA is needed to fit your hand. I know this might seem funny but be honest. If you\'ve had PMMA and you jerk off, does your dick take a slight contour to your hand? The other thing is the Fleshlight will help shape the PMMA to be strait.
Ok enough with the funny stuff
[ If you haven\'t had it yet READ THIS ] So what else is new? Well after having my fill of just fucking anything that moves I realize there\'s a different mentality that girls will view you as when you have a big dick and it\'s not always good. They will treat you like a piece of meat guys.
That may seem great to you, and it is at first, but think about this. We grow and develop our relationships based on our experiences in life. Having a small penis usually means you\'re limited to women who are looking for emotional attachment. When you have a big dick that can make them seriously cum, it\'s a different attachment. You will be used, thrown away, lied to, have to get tested constantly ( if you go the whore route ). It hasn\'t been all that fun to be honest. After the first couple months I started looking for something real and couldn\'t find it. Girls just wanted a wham bam and get the fuck out. I also couldn\'t go back to the more quiet girls looking for emotional attachment because they aren\'t used to larger dicks usually and once they have that AND realize you want something real they go FUCKING CRAZY!!! I\'m talking trying to have a baby to lock you down....
You also start attracting a different crowd... not in a good way. I\'m probably biased since I live in LA, but there\'s a lot of really open people around that started to weird me out. I dated someone who wanted me to have a full on bi-sexual threesome with her male roommate in the hopes it would turn into an orgy with a room full of people. I dated someone who I realized was sleeping with her dog. I dated someone who couldn\'t have a serious relationship because everything she had was paid by some millonaire who flew her to SF once a month to fuck. ( He\'s 60sih she\'s 20ish )
Women who just want to fuck guys with big dicks are also very mean. I\'ve had a few crazies and had to have the locks changed. I\'ve also lost some folks I thought were close friends. I used to hang with these two female models ( just as friends, serious ) ( Think our typical hot but seriously bitchy girls ) So one of them noticed my pants bulging more and I told her i needed surgery because the doctor found a lump and during the process more blood flow was going down there. I don\'t know why I didn\'t think of something better but in response she decided to tell her friends that I had an implant put in to help with erections. So she was 50% right but then her friend told one of my friends not knowing that he was my roommate and frat brother in college. So now I have a few people back home who think I had penial erection implant put in... It really really sucked and I\'m still picking up the pieces from it. It\'s hard to tell people it\'s not true when you jeans suddenly budge out an inch more then they used to...
I\'ve found this recently to be an issue. Because I\'m looking for a real relationship now and I\'m having serious trust issues. I\'m trying to deal with it but it\'s hard because you wondering if this girl is really into you or is just into the big dick.
[ If you haven\'t been READ THIS ] Another thing that I didn\'t think about at the time and really really wish I had is this. A.) Do not use your real name when signing up. B.) Do not allow them to take pictures of you.
For some reason Dr. C tracked me down using my name and tried connecting with me via a social network. This seriously weirded me out because I considered it completely confidential. I\'m also very upset because I allowed them to take photos of me and they have one of my face. For 99% of you this might not be an issue but I\'m someone who might suddenly blow up in my industry and my face will be in the public light. It really freaks me out thinking that one of Dr C staff could take the photos and sell them to a newspaper or something similar. So if I was you I would not give me real name nor allow photos to be taken. It is Mexico folks and they use a digital camera....
So what\'s good? Well I think someone awesome has entered my life. It\'s like I can be myself, pre-implant and we just fit together so damn well it\'s been really great. The only downside is... well... she can\'t cum from sex. I will go to town on her for an hour, which usually is enough to make the seasoned girl scream out, and she just passionally takes it without making much more then an ocassional grunt. Not what I was expecting from the cute blonde next door type who happens to be a genius... Still figuring it out but it\'s nice to have someone again.
So anyways this is different post then I\'m used to writting but I figured I\'d share. In the end I\'m not sad I got the implant. I am a different more confident person for the better. That being said there have been some huge negative things happen in my life because I got it as well...
p.s. In case anyone is reading this that is documenting people cases for publication. Please consider this as notice that you DO NOT have the rights or permission to use my personal experiences in your work. I\'m already planning on publishing just my own journey down the path of enhancement.