Hello
PhalloBoards,
Sorry long post here. Having patrolled this board, I saw a lot of progress reports for
PMMA, but very few for
Radiesse. The most comprehensive
Radiesse report was from like 2013. I don\'t normally post on forums, but I felt it could be to the benefit of others looking for the procedure to share my journey as it unfolds. I originally was just going to put measurements and pics. But I started typing my story for context and once I started, kept going...
I\'ve struggled with the size of my penis since I was a boy. Starting at around 11, I began consuming copious amounts of porn on the internet. Furthermore, being half asian, I dealt with my fair share of small penis jokes in school. I also had a somewhat abusive stepmother who had on more than one occasion when I was a child said that I had a tiny penis.
It wasn\'t until I was 21 that I realized I had penile dysmorphia. One day, I was in the kitchen with my ex-girlfriend cooking hot dogs. \"Those hot dogs are way bigger than I am,\" I remarked. Shocked, my girlfriend laughed and protested, \"these hot dogs are absolutely not bigger than your
Dick!\" Finally, I whipped it out and got hard and she held the hot dog beside my crotch for comparison. I was shocked to see that I was notably larger than the hot dog. One might think that this would have cured me of my dysmorphia, but it didn\'t. Before that day, I thought I had a rational concern about the size of my member. After discovering I had dysmorphia, the concern didn\'t go away; the only thing that changed was that I now considered the concern irrational. I\'ve since gone to sex therapy and spent countless hours researching evidence to support the notion that my penis is big enough or that it isn\'t big enough or that size doesn\'t matter or that it does matter, and so on and so forth.
My obsession took me to the bedroom, where I developed a habit of asking women I slept with to be brutally honest about what they thought of my
Dick. After asking literally dozens of women, I\'d say the breakdown is somewhat as follows:
Length (about 7\"
Erect):
-5% said the length is too much
-90% said the length is just fine
-5% said the length is too small
Girth (about 4.25\"
Erect):
-0% said the
Girth is too much
-40% said
Girth is just fine
-60% said
Girth is too small
At this point, I\'ve been with enough women to justify a believe that I can satisfy some, if not most, woman with my current measurements, given my ability to make a girl feel comfortable and desired and so on. I\'m actually fairly confident. I can be naked in the locker room without feeling overly insecure. However, I still can\'t shake this idea that I would feel more confident, more masculine, and be able to provide more pleasure for women if I was bigger.
So, after many years of consideration, I\'ve decided to get a PE procedure. I perused through many posts on this board and found myself most enticed with
PMMA, specifically the reports I read about Dr. C.
I sent AvantiDerma an email and Ian suggested
Radiesse if I wasn\'t 100% sure I wanted a permanent filler. I had a few concerns. I\'d rather get a permanent filler that would look good, then a temporary one that wouldn\'t. But if I could get a temporary one to see how I feel and then get a permanent one, why not?
After much deliberation and back-and-forth with Ian, I decided to go for
Radiesse, since it\'s supposedly very similar to
PMMA. If I like how it turns out, then in a year from now I will likely go for
PMMA.
AvantiDerma requires full payment for
Radiesse up front since they have to custom order the product for each patient. It\'s $400 per cc and they recommended I take 12ccs. I have paid and am scheduled to meet with Dr. C this Wednesday.
Below are stats and photos:
Flaccid:
L: ~4\"
G: ~3.25\"
Erect:
L: ~7\"
G: ~4.25\"
Ideal Goals:
Flaccid:
L: 5\"
G: 4.25\"
Erect:
L: 7.5\"
G: 5.5\"
