I've been lurking here now for two years and was thinking about
PMMA in May of 2020 but decided against it, but it's always been in the back of my head.
I'm 31 yrs old with an average penis. I never really properly measured, but I'd say I'm about 5.6"-6"
Erect depending on bone pressed,
Erection quality, etc. However, I know that my penis is on the lower
Girth average.
I divorced two years ago and when my wife left me, she said I had the smallest penis she'd ever been with. Before she left, she remarked how small it looked when it was
Flaccid. I chalked this up to a scorned lover trying to get back at me. And yes, she did cheat on me. Another girl I was with just after her, we got in a fight, and she called me a noodle
Dick. Again, I thought she was just trying to hurt my ego; however, that's when I found
PhalloBoards and began researching.
Now, I've traveled the world and have had a few hundred sexual partners. I'm above average as far as physical looks and stature and have an outgoing personality. I've slept with very beautiful women, but I've never had any girl comment on the size of my member. Usually it's just a blank stare or an expressionless face when I remove my pants. Only girls who ever called me big were 18 and 19 girls with obviously not a lot of experience. Some come back for round two, but many just disappear. I've always thought it was my
Dick size but I tried not to think about it. I'm dominant in bed, I'm a giver, and I normally last quite long. I recently had a beautiful woman ghost me and a few others that I really liked just not text back after our one night stand. I had one girl specifically comment it was small, I justified this by telling myself she was just lucky and had a hung ex bf. A girl last month asked me in bed "do you believe you are big?"
The straw that broke the camel's back came 3 nights ago. I met this beautiful woman on Hinge, exchanged some texts and I showed up at her apartment. She remarked how good looking I was and quickly led me up to her room. I saw the anticipation on her face as I took my pants off and you could see the disappointment in her face. She told me she didn't want to give me a blowjob, she got dry midway through, and basically kicked me out afterwards. I felt like shit. I knew what it was, but I had to know. Luckily, she was candid with me. I can't post photos, so I'll summarize below:
I asked to see her again and she replied and said she wasn't what I was looking for. I asked her to extrapolate and she replied that she was looking to recreate the hookups from a past lover that is now married. She said I didn't live up to her last experiences. I then asked if she was looking for a big
Dick. She said "honestly, yes." I was at the gym when I read this and I just left early. I was devastated. So I asked her one more question. I asked if I was girthier, would my length be ok. She replied saying "yes, if you were girthier, your length would be ok for me."
I've had great sex with many women. Some come back for more and more, one a few months ago told me I should teach classes because I was so good, others stalk my social media and send me nudes, those girls are obviously pleased. I've been with many obvious 10s. My ex wife was a model, I've been with two fitness models, and a famous tik toker who is known for her booty. I think the reason I've been able to get such women over the years is my looks, height, and personality, but I can't help feeling I'm not pleasing them like I should.
But it's the ones that like I described earlier that stick with you. In highschool I had a girl laugh at a
Dick pic I sent her and she told all her friends I was small. I am confident in a other matters in life, but I have crippling dysmorphia about the size of my penis.
I want to be confident knowing that I have a thick, girthy penis. I want to see women gasp as I enter, and remark on penis. I can live with my length, but I would like to be thick. I'd like to be confident in a bathing suit and being seen
Flaccid by a woman.
I'm thinking of
PMMA with
Avanti Derma/Dr.
Morales in a few months. However, I'm scared I'll get a deformed penis or never be able to have sex again. I don't want a giant 6"
Girth or more as my head is sort of small and my length isn't that long. I'd be so happy with 5.5-5.7"
Girth. I just want it to look and feel nice. I want my confidence back. I literally haven't left my room in 3 days, what that girl said really hurt me as a man.
What do you guys think, should I go for it?