TOPIC: I'm not sure how I can live like this.

Hey Restoration, maybe you don\'t want to send the text - you may end up feeling like it wasn\'t necessary in the morning and then you will be more tied to him because you will feel bad. I think your first round kind of made your point But I am glad you called him out - that is a shitty way to introduce yourself.

Yeah, I have a low tolerance for BS from guys... very low. Like, negative. I sent him some pics of my Dick chopped up and said \"here, hope this makes you \'furious\'\" and then I told him that he\'s just a typical lobotomized queen from (a certain company I know well) and a certain neighborhood I don\'t live in... and he lied about being new to the city, etc... I don\'t regret it.

Anyway, I woke up with a 9/10 Erection this morning and it looked GREAT! No dents, no lumps, no hard spots. When It\'s super hard, all that sort of \"smooths out\" I think. I do have 2 scar bands, where the excisions were. One was on the top - where the scar is faded but the doc took all the PMMA out of there so it\'s dented. The lower scar band is only 2 weeks old so it\'s raised in most of it. In a month or so, it should be flatter.

But the Erection looked pretty damn good, considering I am only 2 weeks post. It was curved, of course, but that is unavoidable now. Over time, that might correct itself.

Restoration wrote: Yeah, I have a low tolerance for BS from guys... very low. Like, negative. I sent him some pics of my Dick chopped up and said \"here, hope this makes you \'furious\'\" and then I told him that he\'s just a typical lobotomized queen from (a certain company I know well) and a certain neighborhood I don\'t live in... and he lied about being new to the city, etc... I don\'t regret it.

This is what you are like when your are on medication!

lol. So, since things have started healing, I\'ve tried to sloowwwlly taper off the stronger stuff that I shouldn\'t be on for too long anyway (benzos). I instantly turn into a psycho, though. I took a 4 hour nap and now I realized that was completely mental.

So here\'s the catch-22. Lamictal did nothing for me, except make me tired (maybe kept the psycho in check a little). Then, I tried going off of it - and I feel horrible. My doc is like \"well that shouldn\'t happen\" and then I read some stuff online that it IS hard to get off of.

Every time I go over my medication list with a doctor, the Cranberries song \"zombie\" starts playing in the background. I swear, mostly I just get cognitive side effects...then again, who knows what I\'d be like without it.

Thanks - I\'ve been using the same orange foam ones for at least 10 years now. There\'s a tricky balance between them being uncomfortable (the waxy moldable ones) and soundproof. The ones I use always fall out before I wake up at some point. Mine are also a lot cheaper... but they come in a huge box of individual packets. Are those comfortable?

The construction is mostly over fortunately.

I\'m using DMSO 1-2 times a day. I think i am supposed to use it 3x a day if I remember the posts by Red1975. He got results really fast. It does change something - the fullness or something. It goes back, though.

Ear plugs have been on my mind recently, and I am actually having custom ear molds made this Friday. Most people say it\'s overkill to have custom ear plugs, but those who have them say it\'s worth the money. The selling point to me is the perfect fit, comfort, and the customized filter (block all noise vs. reduce). I have a vacation coming up (long flight and many bars and clubs), so they should come in handy.

SF dude - that\'s really interesting. I never heard of that before, and I just found a couple of places on yelp. It looks like an audiologist looks at you in order to make these? Does insurance pay? If not, how much do they usually cost? Will they block out high and low frequency? Thank you!

Restoration wrote: SF dude - that\'s really interesting. I never heard of that before, and I just found a couple of places on yelp. It looks like an audiologist looks at you in order to make these? Does insurance pay? If not, how much do they usually cost? Will they block out high and low frequency? Thank you!

Not sure about insurance, but I think it would qualify for an MRA reimbursement. The total cost was quoted to be about $220, which I guess is for 1 set. Additional filters and/or ear plug type would likely add to that.

I found the audiologist through the sensaphonics website, and apparently she works with lots of musicians. When I spoke to her about my reasons for it (snoring GF, plane ride, hear people better in bars/clubs, etc) she indicated that it would do all of that. If it works like I hope, is comfortable, and has a low profile like the pictures, then I\'ll be well worth the money.

I\'ll let you know in a few weeks after I get them and try them out.

Smalljay, yeah in the 3-4 hours after applying, I get a larger Flaccid penis. This happened when I used it 2 months ago also. It might be the anti-inflammatory effect of DMSO? The fullness (length and Girth) slowly go back to normal.

The hard lumps aren\'t any different but I just started this around October 1. I think Red1975 had some acute inflammatory episode and it helped him more easily than it might help me because these have been there for 6 months now (virtually unchanged, despite Kenalog and 5-fu). I am giving it 1 full month to see any change - even minor. If so, I\'ll stick with it for more. If there\'s nothing, then I\'m not sure. Maybe I\'ll just use the stretching device and hope they stretch out.

The problem is I have this weird right curve now that the left side nodules are way more pronounced than ever before, as are the gap areas where no growth happened.

Ironically, this could be fixed with 1-2 ccs of 30% and 2-3 ccs of 10% (my doc took all the PMMA tissue out of the circ scar area on one side so he could close the incision which looks a little weird) - if it worked right (but it won\'t and it will just form another lump I\'m sure - or cling to others).

SFdude - Thanks - I\'m curious to hear how it goes. I am not as bad of a light sleeper as I was when i was younger but I could use something. The normal foam plugs usually let low frequencies through. Sound can literally travel through your head and your nose to your ear drum, regardless of plugs, though.

CHL, I started to take some of your advice (while talking Hoddle\'s too - and keeping up with the DMSO just in case it helps). I\'m not much of a mountain climber or whatever, but as a big gay guy - interior decoration comes naturally... lol.

You\'re right that if I can focus my obsessive tendencies on something else, I can get a lot done. I decided to overhaul my place a little bit (especially since I\'m working from home all the time on insanely boring lit reviews and data analysis w/ some write-ups)

Anyway, it\'s starting to look really good in here. Every time I walk out of my kitchen, I\'m like - whoa.



Of course the pillows are from Restoration Hardware (where I got my name - just because I had something sitting here when I signed up on the board). It\'s my favoriate store. My bill from there was scary... but I returned some stuff & cancelled a bathrobe they had on backorder until DECEMBER - so forget that. These look freaking amazing in person. I cannot believe they were on clearance.

One day when I live in a big suburban house, it\'s going to be a big RH showroom. I had this as a \"maybe\" but decided no... it\'s 2k... so not now.

I love that bed, its simple yet has attention to detail. Queen or King, a firm memory foam mattress, sunlight piecing through the windows, balcony deck, with one of those old fashion tubs in the bathroom, the smell of pine and lavender from an open window...damb interior decorating can be a great hobby, as long as you have imagination. Some of my friends who majored in studio art, became great interior decorators. I remember going into a expensive decorating store when I was young, and I saw a gloss polished tree trunk with roots in-tact and they were selling it as a ceiling or wall chandelier. You can fall in love with an organic object just like you can admire a painting. Find solace in the hobbies that you admire. Grow some basil and lemon balm, or cultivate some orchids, growing something has always had a positive influence on my mental health. You need growing advice hmu. Home brewing is fun too, its a great time for hard cider making. Salud

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