My penis is not bigger becauseI just recently started PE. But it has never been a problem for me. Of course some times are better than others. Recently a lovely Russian girl told me \" your
Dick is BiG\". Even if it was flattery I liked it and have nice feelings towards this girl. The reality is that I am average. Why do I care so much about penis size then is another problem : I was
d when I was a kid by a cousin who had a huge unit. When I got into porn much later, all I could see was similar sized dicks. Only after doing a long and thoughtful research did I learn that I was in fact not small. But still the body image remains, for instance I have difficulty urinating in the airport lavatories, because of a hidden fear that the guy next to me will laugh. The human mind is weird!
I have had sex with 50 to 60 women in my life which does not seem to be much. I can make love for 5 or 6 hours without discontinuation, and I am quite sensual and tender, with a very soft skin that women tend to like. As a result, in the past years I was told quite a few times that I am \" the best sex they ever had\" . Proof was in the pudding : the most experienced women, those who call themselves \"sluts\" call me and want to see me. But, still I dont believe I am the best. My GF, a splendid Russian girl, was with an 8 inches american guy before me, and she says sex with me is so much better. She asked me not to do PE, saying \" it is perfect now, don\'t touch it, you could damage it!\". I know she is right, but I am using an extender as I type this, and I plan to visit Tijuana next year. I have the strange idea that a big
Dick is the only way to make myself a real man, even though women seem reasonably content with what I offer ( I am 6\'2 and handsome, although I have some belly)
But it never had any impact on my desire and ability to seduce. For this I used mostly my charming wit and my humour, and my blue eyes. But I always envied the \"hot guys\" with a muscular body that women tend to find desirable. I associate this with a big penis and I look at myself and see only a tall fat guy with a small
Dick. When I asked openly about this to some female friends, like \" tell me the truth do not BS me\" they were horrified to learn what I think about myself. One said \" do you think I would have fucked with you if I did not think you are the most attractive guy who tried to pick me that evening?\" Coming from a beautiful French actress, one may think that it should have settled all my doubts. And I cannot count the number of girls who could barely walk after a night with me. My male friends, who over the years heard me fucking during weekends together or at a ski resort, regard me as a great performer judging by the sound, and nicknamed me \"rocco\"... But still I feel inadequate.
So, even if it does not make sense logically, my brain is still wired to think I\'m inadequate. I tried therapy, hypnosis : it did not work. So, my only chance left is PE because there is something bigger at stake : I love my girl, she wants to marry me and have children. But I know for sure that if I still have what I consider to be a small
Dick, I will eventually cheat on her just because I need a girl to see that
Dick and show me she likes it the way it is. (Luckily my GF is a swinger ). Whereas, if I have a big
Dick I know I will feel proud and confident. According to my current stats I am bigger than 56% of men. If I was bigger than 80% I would feel good. This is why the
PMMA ROI is great, making it the best investment I could make.
Insecurity, insecurity.
Sorry if I went a bit off topic.