TOPIC: No Metacrill At Avanti Derma - Linnea Safe ONLY!!

Resto- I went back and looked at your big thread. It\'s an amazing read - I can\'t believe how much you opened up about stuff.

I\'ve been thinking this over and over and over.. but something doesnt sit right. I\'m not sure the body wants this stuff in there.. the hardening happens to breast implant too after a while (a lot of the time anyway) - but the ladies can just change it out.

Us guys are stuck it seams.. The Elist implant on the surface seems like a better plan.. put it in, change it out if needed- but I\'ve read that thread too, so no thank you.

I\'m really in a quandry here. I was going to pull the trigger on Ellanse as you may remember then when I reached out to confirm it was no longer offered in TJ.

Wish there was a way to liquify and re-set the PMMA.

Smalljay, again- thanks. I\'m going to go back and read your whole progress thread too.

If it wasnt for you guys- I\'d probably have this done by now. Not saying I WON\'T do it- but at least you guys gave me pause to put in more research. I\'m having a really bad time right now, I\'m in a bad place mentally. Maybe I\'ll post the story. This Penis Dismorphic thing had never been an issue with me before. I\'m in my early 40\'s. Something with the current GF just set it off. I can\'t sleep sometimes. I obsess. I\'m miserable.

thanks again.

How big are you Brock?

Hi Reklaw-
EL - 6.5 (measured this week, and the 6.5 was a surprise.. I did lose weight and have been taking a lot of HGH)
EG - 4.5

It\'s the 4.5 that gets to me with this girl in particular. She\'s had a child, and I found out she had an encounter with what looked like to be a success story from this board, but natural.
6.5 x and close to 6.0 would be great for me. Not even close to the monster of her ex-fling.. but good enough I think.

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Maybe I failed to make that clear in some of my other threads, and I\'ll be sure more people know. This way, future members aren\'t necessarily left in the dark with their procedures and the free flow of info can remain as unimpeded as possible.

SJ- thanks man, I need to vent.. a little hard to bring up to the friends ya know?

I believe her that we have the best sex she\'s ever had.. I believe her when she said she didnt like having sex with the big boy for the few months. I guess there were \'fit\' issues.
But she definitely has room in there for me, and if she has a few O\'s - it gets really loose. It plays with my head.

The weird thing is- with any of my other ex\'s if you asked me if they think they have had bigger- I would have shrugged my shoulders and say \'probably, who cares\'
I don\'t think I ever knew the size of any of my ex\'s dicks. One, teased that her ex was insecure and had a lig-cut. But it was a subject of putting him down, so while I thought it was \'too much information\' and wasn\'t pleased when I heard it- I was able to blow it off.

The way I found out about this.. and the fact I actually saw pictures.. I\'m a friggin mess. I accidentally saw the pics a couple years ago and my mental state has been declining ever since. The fact I can go tip to Balls deep without any effort and this other guy \'supposedly\' had some real difficult times getting in there, just kills me. Her story changes about him which makes me think she\'s covering some stuff up. The fact that she went out with him in the first place (cheating on her avg or \'really not that bad\' bf at the time) JUST because he sent her a Dick pic makes me want to jump of a bridge.

I don\'t think I can continue being \'not that bad\'. I\'m going to keep reading the board and make a decision as best I can.

OK.. couch session over, where do i send the check?

I think SJ\'s advice about HA is quite sound advice.

For obssession, out of experience (using pumps), you start to make an impression at 6.5\" Girth and above. Only out of coyness they may say \"you\'re too big\". It\'s not worth the risk, money and time if your goal is not at least 6.5\" EG.

Maybe we should start getting \"flogged\" whenever we are thinking too much about our dicks and getting obssessed. Maybe we should start telling these chicks \"you\'re too big, I\'ve had much tighter pussies\" so they can, instead, be thinking of PUSSYPLASTY and being in the mental states we are finding ourselves ...

smalljay wrote: Wow, your story even fucked me up. Sometimes realizing the way women really are (and the way the world is) makes me want to leave this world lol. Life and people really can be pretty god damn overrated.

Only thing i\'ll say is, having been there myself, make damn sure this is worth the risk to you. You have exceptional length. If things go wrong you\'ll be wishing you could be \'not that bad\' again, and you won\'t believe how much you took it for granted.

That being said, not being big does blow. It\'s unbelievable the worship and praise that\'s bestowed upon big dicks and the ridicule that average and below gets. It\'s the most brutal aspect of masculinity in my opinion.

Also, WTF is she still doing with his Dick pic and wtf is she letting u see it for? lol.

Yes I wish death to all this marketing and artificial world.

Really sorry for hijacking the thread-- maybe I should create one, \"Dismorphic, depressed Brock deciding on PMMA\"

SJ- \"It\'s unbelievable the worship and praise that\'s bestowed upon big dicks\" - so, you know- this is a lot of my mental problem. She is SO COMPLIMENTARY. I imagine what she must have said to this kid when she saw it.. what she said during the whole process. It eats me up.

My fault for seeing the pics, actually. Her computer was really slow- bug infected. So I told her I would put a scanner on and clean it. She hands it to me and I say \"Is there anything on here I shouldn\'t see\" - she says no.
I scan the thing with a few scanners and malware cleaners.. deep scans, one picks up some files embedded in the Restore Image, in the trash bin. So- dopey me takes a look. Horrifying. Absolutely horrifying. Some things cannot be unseen. I wanted to pour bleach in my eyes.
Now, to her credit- I do have to say she deleted this stuff off her machine when we started dating and never meant for me to see it. It was before me and I shouldn\'t care-- Yet my brain won\'t turn it off.. you now how it is.
When I said something - she said ALL the wrong things, made it even worse. Things that shouldn\'t be said. But I put her on the spot and she panicked thinking those pics were long gone.

Jogift has a point though.. she asked if she could do anything for me to make me feel better.. So half in anger, half joke I said \"kegles?\" - I\'d bet my bank account she hasn\'t done one.

I think the carrier in Metacrill and Linnea Safe gets absorbed too quickly for use in the penis.

Smalljay, the white blood cells detect the PMMA instantly and are on-site within 24 hours, surrounding the beads (this has been shown in research). In one of my pics, you can see a bead of PMMA just totally encircled by lymphocytes (this is supposed to happen). The collagen and scar capsule matures over time, just like with any foreign body. It takes a while for the body to figure out what to do with it and then finally build the scar wall in the end. This would happen to any implant from breast to chin...just slightly different since they aren\'t particulate - but the process is rather similar. The chart you posted is something I posted before about Bellafill.

After 5 days I think it\'s impossible to move anything. Even after 3 days, it is very difficult.

My PMMA was extremely difficult to move 24hours after... I think if I was issued the stretcher immediately than I possibly would not have the 3 \"doughnuts \".. I\'m hoping Dr.C will be able to address this along with the entry point nodules and no PMMA for the first Inch and a half.. I\'m actually debating on whether to use 10% on the next round over the 30%... I\'m not sure if anyone has done that though or just continued with the 30%..

Brock, if it were me in that exact same situation with a girlfriend, I would honestly leave the relationship. My peace of mind, self confidence, and happiness is much more important to me than any girl. Look what that sort of insecurity almost did to you. You were actually considering injecting a highly questionable permanent product that could have seriously messed up your life. No girl is worth that. Absolutely none.

Ruining a relationship with a girl you genuinely care about and vice versa because YOUR insecure about YOUR Dick size is fucking stupid. If your Dick is too small and she doesn\'t want to fuck you anymore because of it, so be it. But to just up and leave out of the blue because your penis isn\'t the biggest shes seen is asinine.

HA.. well that\'s where the craziness comes in right? So any therapist would echo jd123 of course. It\'s sane. It\'s rational. But look what website I\'m on. Im obviously not sane or rational. Cav\'s thoughts have crossed my mind as well. Just go find some off the boat tiny pussed asian and be done with it.. and then of course, option 3- just go see Dr C, add 1.5\" and buy myself some confidence and hopefully inflict her a bit of discomfort.
Thanks for the sounding board guys- let the internal turmoil continue.

brock wrote: HA.. well that\'s where the craziness comes in right? So any therapist would echo jd123 of course. It\'s sane. It\'s rational. But look what website I\'m on. Im obviously not sane or rational. Cav\'s thoughts have crossed my mind as well. Just go find some off the boat tiny pussed asian and be done with it.. and then of course, option 3- just go see Dr C, add 1.5\" and buy myself some confidence and hopefully inflict her a bit of discomfort.
Thanks for the sounding board guys- let the internal turmoil continue.

lol trues shit!