To follow up on the more personal side of the thread, I can totally relate to rejection and dismissal fucking with your head. It stings man. And I brood for way too long much intensity on failed relationships, rejections, missed opportunities, etc. And the resentment I feel when I see and attractive woman with a guy that I judge as less attractive than me is poisonous and unnecessary. I get laid pretty consistently but I feel unattractive and unworthy easily. Have you ever tried meditation or some kind of talk therapy? I should probably give those things more of a shot.