Michael - i started my progress thread in December - it\'s been up a while. Anyway, things are very different from one week to the next in the first few months of
PMMA - you can see honzee just posted after a break & miracle (and many others) said this too. It could improve / it could get worse / it could stay the same. Who knows. What started this particular post was the huge swelling at the circ area I had (and surprise, it\'s gone now)...among other things I added in. So, anyway... I had the same perspective as bullsnake in terms of journal vs. questions. I don\'t really see the journal as a question-asking outlet. Anyway, I don\'t have much to ask now - mostly, I have to decide if I want to go back early to do some fixes - without adding a lot of
PMMA - or if I just want to go back for a full second round. Since my circ scar area is looking more and more depressed relative to my remaining shaft, I think I need a special round just to deal with that... I don\'t know. I wouldn\'t want to do a Round 2 that would add
PMMA everywhere & just worsen the gap. I\'m not really doing anything w/ the penis except trying to keep it stretched so the length doesn\'t go down any more.
I am anxious bc I had pretty bad penile deformity for 4+ years that ruined a big part of my life - sexually and relationship-wise. The pics on my journal show it - and it was worse in person bc you can\'t see the scale of it really. Every time I met someone or went out with them, I had to think about how I was going to \"deal with the penis issue\" - so now that all of that was gone since the winter post surgery, it\'s screwing with my head to have it all back (this time in the form of lumps and nodules that resemble STDs in some cases - or just make people wonder what is wrong with my
Dick). The Peyronie\'s was treated by every method imaginable before surgery last winter, which was the last resort. Unfortunately, this deformity (Peyronie\'s) also made my size go down significantly...
Girth was down to 4\" for the top half. You can see all this in my journal - but also just the aesthetically unattractive now - and I\'m worried I\'ve been making it worse with
PMMA. I am getting some of that \"gap\" between the lower half and the circ scar area - and I actually had a badly restricted circ scar area several years ago (there\'s a pic in my journal) which sort of resolved itself...but it looked really bad. Now, it\'s just odd looking - but it\'s not finished by a long stretch. I probably have about 2 more visits there...maybe even 3 (and the costs add up..). I\'ve had other surgeries, and the unpredictability of this is hard to deal with.
For the record, though, I did get some unbelievable head - with the comment \"I love your
Cock\" - first in history... despite ALL of the weird problems. So, there\'s that. lol. I was probably over 5\" that day cuz I was really turned on & had
Cialis, which is still avg... (surprisingly to get that comment). 6.5 x 5+ isn\'t that impressive on this board, but it worked well that day!