TOPIC: any advice for hopeless person

hi phalloboard members,greetings from holland you responded to my thread in regards to my ocd/ body dis morphia. I wanted to ask a few questions in regards to things if you any free time.In regards to penis size, I have started your newbie routine, when it comes to Jelqing i seem to have problem bringing blood into the head, I\'m not sure what this can be attributed to. The tunica just below the glan seems very skinny and weak(along with glans) compared to rest of shaft which may be a problem, I\'m wondering if you have encountered anything like this before. I didnt fully pull my Foreskin back until I was around 16/17 in which it bleed slightly this may have contributed to this. My Erect penis is ok at 7x5, I however believe i never reached my full potential due to a kick to the Balls resulting in a varicocele and high amounts of cortisol from stress which would both result in low levels of testosterone. I suppose I am tall, any thoughts would be appreciated.My testicle is the other issue,, at this stage of the game a varicocele embolization may happen if the nhs( british health service) allows it, or else I\'ll have to go private i doubt the bank will sanction so in a bit of a struggle. Is your testicle health exercise the best for increases. Also do you have any personal knowledge in substances such as hcg/clomid or herbal substances such as damiana, herbal is the more likely to be in my budget.Finally the most important issue, my mental health which i think you may be bale to give a good insight into. The obsessive thinking regarding both concerns has completely taken over my life for the last 4 years, there has been periods were I haven;t thought about( relief when i first discoveredpe). these thoughts go on my head 24/7 with anxiety, burst second nature to me now. I am on rhodiola to maintain cortisol levels. I had feelings of suicide last week, which have drifted away(this wasn\'t a shock tactic, just honesty I\'m sure there is enough of those threats on this board. I just cant see how my life is going to change around from this. I know im limiting my minds potential from achieving due to this crippling thought pattern but.My complusion is to surf these boards, looking for someone worse off than me. i know this sound tragic but its the truth. If I had experienced puberty properly, I know my life situation would be alot different. I feel all mental help into regards has past( though may help in conjunction with this. It just can be daunting knowing I\'ll have to do this for the rest of my life(pe) to prevent the sucidal thoughts from coming back.I hope to get a reply from you, but if not I will always respect you for what you have done for men across the world

pob 1991 wrote: hi phalloboard members,greetings from holland you responded to my thread in regards to my ocd/ body dis morphia. I wanted to ask a few questions in regards to things if you any free time.In regards to penis size, I have started your newbie routine, when it comes to Jelqing i seem to have problem bringing blood into the head, I\'m not sure what this can be attributed to. The tunica just below the glan seems very skinny and weak(along with glans) compared to rest of shaft which may be a problem, I\'m wondering if you have encountered anything like this before. I didnt fully pull my Foreskin back until I was around 16/17 in which it bleed slightly this may have contributed to this. My Erect penis is ok at 7x5, I however believe i never reached my full potential due to a kick to the Balls resulting in a varicocele and high amounts of cortisol from stress which would both result in low levels of testosterone. I suppose I am tall, any thoughts would be appreciated.My testicle is the other issue,, at this stage of the game a varicocele embolization may happen if the nhs( british health service) allows it, or else I\'ll have to go private i doubt the bank will sanction so in a bit of a struggle. Is your testicle health exercise the best for increases. Also do you have any personal knowledge in substances such as hcg/clomid or herbal substances such as damiana, herbal is the more likely to be in my budget.Finally the most important issue, my mental health which i think you may be bale to give a good insight into. The obsessive thinking regarding both concerns has completely taken over my life for the last 4 years, there has been periods were I haven;t thought about( relief when i first discoveredpe). these thoughts go on my head 24/7 with anxiety, burst second nature to me now. I am on rhodiola to maintain cortisol levels. I had feelings of suicide last week, which have drifted away(this wasn\'t a shock tactic, just honesty I\'m sure there is enough of those threats on this board. I just cant see how my life is going to change around from this. I know im limiting my minds potential from achieving due to this crippling thought pattern but.My complusion is to surf these boards, looking for someone worse off than me. i know this sound tragic but its the truth. If I had experienced puberty properly, I know my life situation would be alot different. I feel all mental help into regards has past( though may help in conjunction with this. It just can be daunting knowing I\'ll have to do this for the rest of my life(pe) to prevent the sucidal thoughts from coming back.I hope to get a reply from you, but if not I will always respect you for what you have done for men across the world

I don\'t have the time to properly reply right now, but in my very honest opinion, this forum is a terrible place for people who have obsessive thinking. We are a good natured bunch and will try to help and advise each other as much as we can, but some of what is posted here is the stuff of nightmares for OCD sufferers who have penis size insecurities. I consider myself to be mentally tough and pretty rational, but some of the stuff posted here gets into my head and really effects my mental state for the worse.

Just my 2 cents and others may disagree.

yeh i agree, some of the members physc\'s have scared me thinking I will suffer the same pain they have throughout the years. Il be blocking myself once this post has been responded to

I agree with Hoddle, but I must say, you need to take care of your self not your Dick right now!! Goto a specialist get your mind right, I wish we would not let our dicks define us, but since many of us do we are here. But you are not in the state to do anything because if it doesn\'t work, you will be even worse off! By saying it won\'t work, I mean the it will never be the complete answer to your needs( it will not fix everything in your life)many here set goals and just keep going after they got to their goal ,saying one more round and then i am done!! never ends, and heaven forbid you have a less than favorable outcome that you now have to deal with!! Chin up and get better before you start modifying yourself! Good luck!