TOPIC: My story + my plan

Hey guys. I'm brand new here and I thought I'd share my journey and my plan as of now based on the little bit of research I've done.

I'm 28 and single and I've finally reached the point where I want to do something about my size. I've lived most of my life with insecurities -- my length is around average at 5.75 NBP, but my Girth is well below average at around 4.1, and it's been a slow build towards feeling more and more ashamed of that.

I've been sexually active since I was 17 and I've had plenty of great sexual experiences, but of the 15 girls I've been with I've had some things happen that made me feel pretty bad about my size.

One girl in particular that I was completely in love with during college made repeated comments about how important size was to her (she never commented specifically on my size for better or for worse, but I always assumed the subtext was that she was less than satisfied). She eventually broke things off with me to go back to a toxic ex who she mentioned in passing had a huge Dick. She later dated another dude at our school who was a complete weirdo, and one of her friends later told me that she only dated him because he had a huge penis. We became friends years after we broke up, and I once teased her for dating that guy, and she straight up said that it was only because he was well hung.

While I felt like the sex we had was very good, it always messed with my head a bit that we had such a great connection on a personal level, and yet she tossed me to the side and was later willing to chase after other dudes who were not cool, charming, or funny in any way, but had huge dicks. I should add that this girl also happened to have one of the widest vaginas of anyone I've been with, so that's probably why she is a size queen, but that's a topic for another time. Anyways, it just sucked to be glossed over by a girl I was completely in love with, likely in part because of my size.

In the years after dating her I've had a few girls that I had great sex with, but I still always knew on some level that my lack of Girth was a limiting factor in how much I could please them (I just never felt like I was fully filling a girl up). I did the best I could to not let that get in my head, but that nagging knowledge that you physically cannot give her the sensation you could if you were bigger is always there.

And then, this past winter I dated a girl that changed everything. She was the tightest girl I've ever been with by a mile, and holy shit, it changed my perception of sex completely. The first few times we had sex I came within a minute because I was so unprepared for what that felt like. It was the first time I ever felt like my Dick just fit perfectly in her vagina, completely filling her up, and feeling her vagina touching every single part of my Dick. Sometimes at my size, being with a girl that is relatively loose, you can hardly feel anything while you're inside her, and this was the exact opposite.

It ended up not working out with that girl, but I'm so glad I had that experience. It made me want to do something about my Girth so that I can at least like to get to the point where I can feel something resembling that with the average girl. I probably would have ended up pursuing some form of Girth enhancement eventually regardless, but now I at least feel like I'm doing it out of a desire for a richer sex life rather than just out of shame.

So, here's my plan. I've looked into all sorts of lengthening procedures and ultimately I just don't feel comfortable with any of them. So I'm going to just focus on lengthening exercises until I gain half an Inch, which I expect to take 6-12 months. R/gettingbigger has been a great source of info for that.

After that, I think I'm going to proceed with HA. I am very intrigued by PMMA, and I may still end up doing it, but I have an autoimmune condition affects my collagen content in my skin (it's not very serious, I know it sounds scary) so I'm a bit hesitant to try anything that is 100% reliant on collagen growth. I'll probably consult with some of the specialists to see if they have any first hand knowledge into any cases like mine, but odds are I will at least start with HA. Based on what I've seen around here, the upper limit on HA after a few sessions seems to be around 1 Inch gained of Girth, but I would be thrilled to achieve that result. There are a couple different reputable HA providers in the city where I live, so I will definitely consult with them some time in the next few months.

Anyways, thanks for listening to me vent. I'm excited to be here and will be sure to provide updates on my journey as I go along.

Great point, and it's crazy, i really got to appreciate tight vaginas.. and basically bigger Dick makes vaginas more tight

Thanks for sharing your story. Like most of us, I would imagine, I can relate to much of it.

I’m in the hyper-fixated research phase of my journey where I haven’t had a procedure yet.

It seems like the best thing if you’re sure you want to this is to have some consultations. Find a doctor that knows about your collagen condition and whether or not PMMA would work for you with that condition. Hopefully they’ve heard of your condition and don’t just try to sell you on it. Maybe collagen supplements help?

From my understanding your expectations of HA are realistic . But if you can never do PMMA, can you afford to maintain your temporary gained Girth from HA? If not, will returning back to normal just intensify your current insecurity?

I personally could maybe afford a temporary filler one time before moving onto PMMA . I cant travel out of state for maybe 2 years so I’m considering this option.

I know I couldn’t afford to perpetually maintain HA gains and I think to watch my Dick go helplessly backwards in size would just be a mind-fuck. For me personally I don’t think it would be worth the short term confidence.

Thanks for your input Hughchardon. I'm inclined to agree that PMMA is the more optimal long term option. Income wise I could theoretically afford to maintain my HA gains year after year, but it would definitely be ideal to have something with the permanence of PMMA.

I definitely will consult with a doctor who performs PMMA to see if they have any experience with someone like me. My collagen levels aren't totally tanked, I basically have the equivalent of someone in their 50s, but if this procedure can be done for 50 year olds maybe that means I could have it done with no complications? Who knows, we'll see what the doctors say.

Anyways thanks and best of luck to you on your journey.

Dream wrote: Great point, and it's cracy, i really got to appreciate tight vaginas.. and basically bigger Dick makes vaginas more tight

Yep lol. My first few experiences expanded I popped faster than usual. Friction on everything, like parking a hunmer in a compact space.

Noneya14 wrote: Yep lol. My first few experiences expanded I popped faster than usual. Friction on everything, like parking a hunmer in a compact space.

From which Girth did you go to which new Girth?

If you want to see how your body responds to collagen stimulating fillers, have you considered looking into some of the shorter duration fillers like Radiesse?
Or like Dr Leonardo is doing with blending Radiesse and HA?
You'd be using yourself as a guinea pig but you could at least see if collagen stimulation is a flop.
I think it's worth consulting with some of the nerdier doctors on here to see how they think you'd be affected. My intuition says you should at worst get a diminished yield from e.g. PMMA, and that there may be peptides like GHRH/GHRP types and GHK-Cu that might help with collagen stimulating fillers, but like all of the other not-a-doctors, it's a semi-educated guess.

Good advice thanks!

I hadn't heard of Radiesse or those peptides, I will definitely look into them and bring them up when I consult with the doctors.

I also wonder if it might be worth it to try getting a small amount of PMMA filler injected somewhere else on my body to see how I respond. Though not sure where I could do that without it being noticeable / problematic in any way. Maybe my back or something? Who knows, I'll look into it. I doubt anyone has tried that before but it seems like something that may be worth a shot for me.

Playing devil's advocate and thinking out loud, my stream of consciousness post is worth exactly what you paid for it (nothing!) but...

From what I've read here I think PMMA elsewhere in the body would be a poor test if only because you see people talking about how much longer fillers last in the penis VS areas like the face.
Likewise with e.g. Ellanse, lots of threads talking on it but basically these Ellanse derivatives that are meant to "only" last for 3 years in standard areas of the body, are lasting 5, 7, more years in the penis.

So the worry is you get an unimpressive result in a part of the body where the result is EXPECTED to be unimpressive.
Whereas if you, for example, get a modest procedure with a Radiesse+HA blend, you can look at two criteria and determine if collagen stimulating filler is viable for you (and in the meanwhile enjoy a slightly plumper Dick)
-do you get the volume of collagen others would from the same procedure, or at least within the range of expected volumes
-does it have the same longevity as others are getting

If the latter is true you might have 2+ years with most of your volume. If not, you have your answer in the lowest risk way possible (though of course youve wasted the money).

you make some good points there. i'm gonna look into the HA + Radiesse more closely, that sounds like it might be just what I need. Thanks!

What exactly is he trying to test here? Whether he reacts poorly or not at all?

itgoesthud wrote: If you want to see how your body responds to collagen stimulating fillers, have you considered looking into some of the shorter duration fillers like Radiesse?
Or like Dr Leonardo is doing with blending Radiesse and HA?
You'd be using yourself as a guinea pig but you could at least see if collagen stimulation is a flop.
I think it's worth consulting with some of the nerdier doctors on here to see how they think you'd be affected. My intuition says you should at worst get a diminished yield from e.g. PMMA, and that there may be peptides like GHRH/GHRP types and GHK-Cu that might help with collagen stimulating fillers, but like all of the other not-a-doctors, it's a semi-educated guess.

I added 157 and TB500, SubQ during HA. Not sure your thoughts on those.