Yes im broke, but i do would make a huge credit borrowing, even if i stay my whole life in debt.
Ive always hated my Body, i was the fat ugly kid my whole life and i will do ANYTHING to fix my Body.
What i Need is a full bodylift plus clavicle lengthening and drastically penis and testicle enlargement, after that i would spend the remaining Money for serveral prostitutes.
Ive came to a Point where i get strong derealizations and compulsive neurosis through my extrem Isolation, i actually now dont care about life in general anymore, i just want to satisfy my Basic human Needs (something which I had to suppress from compulsion always) and die after it.
friends, Hobbies, passions, succesful Jobs or Jobs in General, getting girlfriends etc. All These Things are impossible to achieve if you are so psychological unstable and depressed like me.
Herbert's Quote (actually William Blake's) was excellent \"Some are Born to sweet delight, some are born to endless night\" This is how life REALLY works, so fuck this delusional utopic bullshit in telling People there's an solution for everything.